Weakness leaving the body!...Start of a journey

Hey so I'm back here once more.

So here's my story...I was here about 4 years ago, I was single at the time and I started the journey of nofap, Yes I relapsed a few times but I went a couple of year streak, things were amazing, my confidence was at an all-time high, people treated me differently, i was physically stronger at the gym, leaner etc...I met my soulmate, had a child and now expecting another baby.

I've gone back to the dark side

With a cumulation of weakness, having less action the last couple of years with partner being pregnant, then having a newborn and then now expecting again, It's all got to me, and I've started watching P.O.R.N again and fapping and it's started to get regular, I feel more and more stressed (sexually frustrated at most times) feeling negative, feel weak and loads less confident.

I'm back here again for the help and to start the nofap journey once more. I know I can do it, just need to get myself out of this rut and gain back my self-control.

 

Thanks dude! Yeah just have to remember that. Well the main one would have been when I met my soulmate...You know how it is (won't go into detail in case of triggers) But there wasn't any NEED to fap as such, but I also told her not long into the relationship about my previous issue with fapping, she was fully supportive which helped.

I also kept myself busy...especially at the start, went gym a lot. before I met her I focused on learning everything dating, body language, what women want, in the bedroom stuff etc. Then got myself on tinder and had some fun.

Every time a trigger happened so like a raunchy ad on TV, for example, I focused on my breathing and then got busy studying, going to the gym or learning something.

I'll have more of a think but hope these help

 

Congrats on 155 days as well! Really impressive!

 

Thanks! Yeah i don't think I'll be doing hard mode...I just know that wouldn't work for me, Plus don't want it to affect my partner.

It's got to be normal mode for me

 

Ok so I was at the gym today...Seen I a woman in tight clothing, my immediate thought was "I'll watch porn later" so I've now decided to keep busy and mow the grass and trim the hedge (no pun intended ha!)

*Side note*

Felt strong at the gym today...Know it's only phycological but I liked the feeling

 

Umm nah i'd say im quite busy ha! Juggling continental night shifts with trying to start a dog training business in my free time, with a 20 month old and another on the way. But i've got used to that so maybe not busy enough!

Yeah i do like to read, and NEED to read more again, so thanks i'll start readingg again.

 

Yes i feel this way sometimes...And agree with you.

I was working for myself but subcontracting to someone...they let me go abruptly no proper reason, i paid for the training etc. So now im in a situation where i'm having to start from scratch creating my business but had to go back into full time employment to support the family. So it's just got to be this way until i can get the business up and running and getting in clients.

Thanks i really appreciate that. Just watched a video regarding Chester Bennington (linkin Park) dealing with anxiety and depression etc He mentioned how if you have a headache, you take time out, or take medication or even go to the doctor. but if you're stressed or suffer from mental illness you just carry on and ignore it. My point is porn and masturbation are a mental issue, it's an addiction.

So i'll take what help i can get and i will look into reading that book, definitely need some breathing exercises.

 

Hey there's a lot of people on here further along in their journey who can help you along with multitudes of threads here to help.

But if you need help feel free to message me.