Watching stuff that turns you off while binging

Hey, I am trying nofap for a while now and try to be more aware of my behaviours. I recently noticed, that oftentimes while edging (pretty unhealthy in itself) I tend to swap to another video, or searching for something new just before I cum. Usually when this happens I search for more hardcore stuff, I have noticed that I watched a lot of genres that actually turn me off. when I try to start a session with some of the stuff, I oftentimes dont even get hard, and when I am in this desperate mode, where I try to finally cum but cant, its usually some amateur porn or something more vanilla that gets me of.
I think I probably try to extend the binge session by doing this. It might also be, that I am trying to satisfy some kind of curiosity with that. Maybe I just want to feel like shit for some reason (my psychologist had suggested this). Dont know whyt exactly it is, I just wanted to share. I try to avoid this behaviour if I relapse again, I hope I can return to a healthy sexuality some day.