Day 0. Just fapped to P. 35 yr old Male from England. Been a P addict since age 13(roughly). Started with magazines> vhs> internet. Tastes have gone from vanilla> fetishes> Shemale> sometimes gay. I’ve paid for prostitues Female and Shemale. Been with men as well. Anything other than straight sex has resulted in me heaving, being physically sick, suicidal thoughts, mental torment, shame and drug use. P is the root cause. I’m straight but P had twisted my sexuality. I know this as when on a streak I notice women more, become more confident, flirty and know I love women. P has also caused me to have PIED ruining sexual relationships. I’ll be taking this one day at a time. Reminding myself of why I’m doing this will be important on this journey. In 5 years from now I want to be brimming with confidence, have healthy relationships, doing well with work and know who I am and be at peace with it aka a warrior. What I don’t want is to be addicted to P, have meaningless relationships, no confidence and be ashamed of what I am. I’m starting at a low point but I’m excited as things can only get better on this journey.