Vent

I made Nofap my start up page when google launches and it's great also the home page of masculine intent . I'm doing really well and I'm enjoying my life a lot more. I'm finding myself having to deal with my emotions which is new but difficult. I figured out that I have a feminine side and what it is and it means. and I'm like really happy about it (Jungian theory - Anima and Animus) it helps me relate with women and to talk to them, it's so cool. I've been keeping my eyes pure and everything, not looking at women when I walk down the street, my intentions in approaching them don't revolve around sex and they pick up on it. I'm living life for the first time. I'm almost 30 (December 2017). I feel so behind, I work with people around the ages of 25 and younger. I'm young at heart and I look young but I feel such frustration and jealousy toward them. I feel like I fucked up because i didn't reach my goals almost like a midlife crisis. My triggers were the obvious sensations. I wish they would just go away (I'm exercising and stretching a lot, doing yoga and listening to healing frequency music). I never want to masturbate again (I didn't relapse just reaffirming my stand). I have religious reasons that empower it, a true fear of G-d and regret. I haven't been on this journey for long but my life has taken a drastic change for the better. I cried the entire weekend and broke a few things. So many things inside me I realized were unresolved. I found a few positive resources and people to follow online. One is Dr. Jordan Peterson (sorting myself out). He said "listen to the voice that beckons you forward." If you don't it will unleash a hell on your life that you can't escape. We all have this good beautiful voice that tells us to stop and not do it. It never says why but if you follow it, it tends to have a reward. Not masturbating anymore has held the greatest reward - a key to life in abundance.

 

After stopping porn and masturbation you will experience the following benefits,

1) Clarity of mind, no mental clutter
2) Better stamina in sports
3) Absence of depression, as in "there's actually nothing wrong with me"
4) Better short term memory, grasp conversations, sharp and clear mind
5) Feeling worthy of hottest girls
6) Interacting with people goes from nuisance to fun activity
7) Facial hair grows faster
8) Music sounds better
9) Being cool with awkward situations
10) Past events are remembered better
11) Movies watched in one sitting, rather than interrupting it with distractions
12) Feeling of being really alive and feeling of having/being a powerful spirit
13) Better looking skin
14) Free, genuine belly laugh
15) Appreciation and admiration of women's inner and outer beauty
16) Less sleep is needed to feel rested
17) Much less irritability
18) Destructive erections
19) Improved chest, neck and shoulders musculature (without exercise in a particular case)
20) Vibrant and alive looking eyes
21) Voice is now clear
22) Reduced rage and anger
23) Movies, novels and art are appreciated much more
24) Better dream recollection
25) More wisdom on various subjects, without actually studying them. As in mind gets better at making connections.
26) Easier to get up in the morning
27) Like Neo in the Matrix, getting heightened senses and intuition
28) Enjoying company of kids and older folks
29) No more craving for sugar and alcohol
30) Urge to expand your mind
31) No more angry outbursts around the family
32) "Annoying" things females do are now appreciated
33) A tangible magnetic connection with chicks
34) Chores are now easier to perform
35) Seeing "big picture" in life better
36) Ability to look at women and feel her, sense if her energy is good or bad
37) Ability to relate chicks like friends and seeing them flock to you
38) Nothing stresses you out anymore
39) Men respect you more
40) Men flinch in your presence


All holds up 100%

 

Thanks you. I was kinda going through hell at that time with the frustration of the realization of what i had being doing to my life. This thread is just a mess. I didn't expect anyone to read it. I had no one to talk to so I thought I'd just speak it out on a thread. I actually copied that list from a beginner NoFap thread but I can 100% confirm this because i experienced almost all of it. Also when I wrote that I was on day 45. Thanks for reading