Valentine's day, when you realize how fucked up is your brain

I'm on day 11...I stupidly searched for a porn star I liked today, HAD to see he images. Then i closed it all. Today I have just been unmotivated, how i usually feel throughout watching porn. Since quitting i got the lost motivation to go the gym, be positive. turn my life around a bit but seems a lot! But today I just feel the same as when i watched porn daily and at this point i usually would divert my attention to porn for a little happiness. I am positive mostly but its been hard today. I am seriously in the middle of the scales on whether to give up at this point and just masturbate. I did 17 days not long ago so this is pretty lame. Funnily enough I'm at the flatline stage also, yet today its been more sensitive. this is SO difficult.

 

You have already done a great change by sharing and posting your burdens in here with us. My dear friend, I was also a victim of bullying myself, and I can relate deeply over how you feel. By experience, I must say to you that the best thing you can do is to seek help with your current friends and meet new people, continue in doing that extensively, and youll find new friends that can build a story with you. You can count with us too.

I'll say that, what appears to be the truth for you right now really isnt. This world will test you in every aspect of your life, and you must know that the numbers and the overall things in the media aren't real. That's what they want you to believe. You can seek deep into your heart as a person, and there youll see a common variable of love. That thing that we all have, but not everyone can control and be in sync with it. Youll slowly discover that everyone is a universe apart, everyone is different. Therefore there are those who sacrifice their worth as a mean of making the numbers happy. Fact is that the numbers aren't you and you should know that your own value can surpass all these brainwashed people that bullied you. Make the difference, because you're already on top of them.

Cheers, a fellow sailor.

 

It really does In a lot of ways, I *don't* think you're wrong about women as money sniffers. All of society has been warped and corroded by the acid of hardcore brainwashing. If women are only good for sex, says porn, how long can women fight how that message is acted out on their bodies? They aren't going to get love or commitment, so they make the most of it and prost themselves (formally or otherwise.)

I've been used with contempt 7 times, in relationships varying durations. If there was affection in any relationships, the only lasting effects are the damaging ones, the ones where my only worth was my sex appeal and permissiveness- my desperation for love to be taken advantage of. I know this is nothing compared to what some women endure, or the cruel rejection so many men face from mistrustful and superficial women. And the timeline all correlates with the dawn of tube and broadband. I've lost my sexual liberation, it doesn't feel safe out there anymore. And being cautious to feel someone out just smothers passion and desire, some of the most beautiful stuff mankind is capable of. How *can* women love? How can anyone with all of these soulless messages? Breaks my heart. Every time you get up and are willing to trust and be vulnerable, someone is there to dehumanize and take advantage.

So what do we do? Live by our ideals. Heal the scars PMO conditioning has left. Quit social media and seek like-minded souls, while knowing not everyone has seen the light yet? We're not alone. When we find ourselves, and love ourselves (not in *that* way...,) love will find us...

 

Porn Is A Love Killer .

But the great part about NoFap... is that it works ! Rebuild yourself into the new you and those past experiences,thoughts,nightmares,etc. only builds you up into a stronger person. Anything is possible !

Born To Lose, Built To Win [ Mindset ]

 

First valentine without my waifu. feelsgoodman.