Upwards spiral

I've lost pounds lately, it was less than two week ago I seriously began my journey to lose weight I went from weighing 183 kg, to 179-80 kg. The cold showers kicked in when I felt that exercising was overbearing, yet I was persistent. I really saw the benefits of taking cold showers. I try not to talk to my dad as much, as he tends to put me down, telling me I do everything wrong, silly things like rubbing my shoulders, like the strangest thing to do period... Other than that I try to associate myself with people who are lifting me up, telling me I am a cool person. People that give me self-worth. Don't be afraid to get rid of emotional vampires, chances are high they will not chance. I listen to positive myself only, complete control of what I listen to. Be alert with what you let into your fucking headspace. I practise self-love exercises as well. Look up eft, it stands for emotional freedom techniques. I make an effort to make situations win-win with others. I practise having a strong body language, your body can change your mind, if you do powerful poses. Arms behind neck, spreading legs, increases your testestorone. Currently I've maintained a month streak which I am proud of. Keep in mind, that the confidence you've obtained can be annihilated if you go back binging porn. I've done that, and I felt like crying. I am proud of myself what I have done. I have also changed a lot of habits of mine, that I always went back to in the darkest of times. Now I can see how to change my patterns. Hope you make it far too

 

You've experienced rock solid confidence, then it faded after the consumption of porn, I even noticed my body posture getting weaker