The brain is always searching for something that’s going to feel good. I’m the worst kind of addict because I’m not the worst kind. I have so many different avenues for getting myself off. Getting my little dopamine hits. Chewing tobacco, porn, sex, sarcasm, immersing myself in work and money, driving reckless, Juuling, drinking, playing video games, eating healthy, self motivation, prowling social media looking at sexy girls, certain thought forms. Where a junky has to abstain from one form of substance, my brain is always looking and finding something to deepen the portfolio. Everything in life just seems mundane. I don’t want to make new goals to be happy because I’m unhappy. I just want to be happy. Why is it such work? I’m assuming porn giving me all these problems. Been watching all my life and it’s been bad in more ways than one. Currently 15 days in no PMO. I’ve done this multiple times up to 50 days and say screw it because nothing is relevant or matters and I’m in control of my destiny. The apathy is real. But I’m struggling so differently now it’s feeling like life or death. Just ranting honestly My brain is needing serious rewiring but society and me have set me up where I can’t stop and start getting the serious help I’m feeling i need. Anyone aware of diets or supplements to revert or induce proper brain chemistry while I continue along this path?