Feeling balanced. I know recovery is a process and I know there will be struggles ahead. It cannot possibly be all smooth sailing without any battles, that is not how recovery works really. I mean magic must be involved if it were otherwise no? Or perhaps a personal transformation so complete one comes to view fapping and viewing P as behavior akin to producing repulsion on par with consuming poison and wanting to be healthy. I am sure overthinking this will not help so I will stop there. Time to keep it simple. I will not set any expectations for what I should or should not journal about here. No timeframe. May be in daily or I may be in quarterly, once every 3 months that is, I mean in terms of a quarter. I feel so healthy in mind and body I really should strive to be of the most support and help I can be to others at the RR meeting tonight (Refuge Recovery). I will share an update on it afterwards and title it RRR (Refuge Recovery Reflections). I will do a RRR every Sunday night. Ah shoot, I was planning ahead there. All plans off. I will write anything that feels right in the moment from now on.