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TWO YEARS WITHOUT PORN / THE TRADITION: YEAR THREE

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Dodgerschokedagain, Nov 21, 2018.

  1. Dodgerschokedagain

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    DAY ELEVEN:
    Ugh, hardest day ever (literally!) So even after having a wet dream, and THEN fapping in the morning, my brain decided that wasn’t enough and I edged for legit almost the entire day. This isn’t working. I’m a horny mess and I feel like I’m having my man-period. This might be it for me for this challenge, I don’t know. But I’m legit going insane. The only bright side is that I get very little time to fap over the next week. Tomorrow is the only day where I’m home the whole afternoon after school until like the 13th. I thought the benefits would kick in around day 13-15, and that’s just around the corner. But there’s a 50/50 chance I’m continuing. If I make it through the week I’m past halfway Sunday, and after that I almost certainly wouldn’t quit.
     
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    DAY TWELVE:
    So, I basically failed. I binged last night, and then fapped once today. I feel so horny that I could go crazy. I feel like I can’t control this. I somehow feel MORE addicted then 12 days ago. This is because I set rules for myself, and in this situation, rules make me go crazy and fail. I still feel like I’m not in control at all.

    So does that mean this is it?
    No. It doesn’t.

    Tomorrow I’m starting fresh for the remaining 22 days, I’ll still count it as day 13, and I’ll only count the 4 times I fapped before my binge last night, and not the time today in my total (because I was basically insane).

    Tomorrow my fresh start begins. Hopefully this works. Also no rules for now for the new start, not until I’m ready.
     
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    DAY THIRTEEN:
    So my rebirth plan is coming tomorrow instead, it was working, but I got an urge when I got home. I was out all day and felt good. Kinda sucks tbh, but the physic in me has had the feeling that tomorrow will be my turning point for a long time. Also I set up my Christmas tree tomorrow, which gets me in the spirit. Christmas spirit = NoFap spirit. So my goal is only 6 faps in the final 3 weeks. I just gotta get out of my slump.
     
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    DAY FOURTEEN:
    Back in this thing boys! Got some urges but didn’t fap today. Not too good at school with all the haters, but my parents weren’t pissed after parent teacher conferences, so I guess that’s good. Tomorrow we set up our Christmas tree and sing Christmas songs at a nursing home, so that’s good, it’ll help me get into the spirit. See y’all tomorrow.
     
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    DAY FIFTEEN:
    People keep ignoring me at school, but I was out all afternoon and went to the gym, and I did not masturbate, I’m going on another little streak, and it’s extremely likely I’ll make it to Sunday, 5 days! Today was easy in the urge department so that’s good. I’ll be back tomorrow.
     
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    DAY SIXTEEN:
    So things felt a lot better at school today. People seemed to ignore me less. I did get some urges today, but I don’t have them right now because I’m at my grandparents’ house! I’m almost 100% certain I’m making it to Sunday! See everyone later.
     
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    DAY SEVENTEEN:
    Well, today marks the end of the first half, tomorrow I’m over the hump. I’ll make sure to not lose motivation, especially on a 4 about to be 5 day streak. As for today itself, it was normal. I mean I did next to nothing at my grandparents’ house, and by nothing I also mean no edging or anything. I’m fresh and alert for Sunday, ready to crush it.
     
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    DAY EIGHTEEN:
    The second half has begun. Today was a normal Sunday, except for the Patriots losing like they did (and the Steelers). Unfortunately, that 5 day streak was lost in the worst way possible: on accident. The worst way to lose a streak. I wasn’t sure whether to count it or not but I think I know how I have to look at it. So crappy Monday is coming up, wish me luck tomorrow, ugh.
     
  9. Congrats, I really like that approach. don't be masochistic and vow not to fap at all, but in a restricted way with set out rules. My rules at the moment (when I am done with the monk mode in a few days) is 4 times a week.

    Clear rules don't allow for shifty arguments that you are not breaking them when you do. Do you have a way to punish yourself in case you break your own rules? My punishment is monk mode for a selected amount of time. I am doing that right now because I have been a bad boy.
     
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    I don’t have a set form of punishment. But shame and guilt fill me when I break the rules. Sometimes I’ll let it go, but this is rare and only in an uncontrollable and extreme case (very rare)
     
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    DAY NINETEEN:
    Ugh Monday... kinda crappy but I can feel the benefits. My mind knows I’m over halfway done, but I gotta keep telling myself that I’m nowhere near out of the woods yet. Tomorrow I’m out for a little, but most of the afternoon I’m home. It’s gonna be a test, one that I unfortunately failed today. HOWEVER, my urges are far more controllable now compared to two weeks or even a week ago.
     
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    DAY TWENTY:
    So today was actually pretty good. I got good vibes from people, surprisingly. Today my parents and I finally had the Santa talk but they said they knew my sister and I hadn’t believed since I was like 11 lol. No fapping today either, always good.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-ONE:
    No fapping today! Yay! Pretty normal day, my dad was annoying though lol. I feel like the pieces are finally coming together, my time is almost here, I know it! Still got 13 more days to shine!
     
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  14. Nabaski

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    Keep going, you're doing good :) try to stay busy most of the time, boreness can trigger urges sometimes. hunger, thirst and drowsiness must be kept at bay as well
     
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    That’s exactly what I’ve been trying to do! I never knew about hunger, thirst, and drowsiness, that might explain why I’ve had worse urges for the most part, because 15 year old boys are hungry all the time lol. Each passing week seems to get easier though, I know once I make it to Wednesday next week it’s probably smooth sailing out to the 26th.
     
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  16. Nabaski

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    Believe that you will be smooth sailing all the time ;)
     
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  17. whoami33

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    @Dodgerschokedagain do you feel the need to do diary after 2 years ?
    do you feel you are still rebooting after 2 years ?
    have you watched porn in these 2 years ?
    how your life has changed in these 2 years ?
     
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    I do now! Things are getting easier
     
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    Well, the diary is important and all part of the process. I do not do nofap from when Christmas ends (usually, some years I wait until after January 6th) until Thanksgiving. I have thought about doing this in Lent but I haven’t. This is a tradition to me, and I feel like I get antsy by November and need to do this, it’s my recharge and my time of healing.

    Now, just because I fap, arguably too much even for someone who isn’t addicted for all but 4-5 weeks a year doesn’t mean I use porn. I haven’t since the day before I started this tradition.
     
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    DAY TWENTY-TWO:
    Today was a pretty good day but I was disappointed when my stupid orthodontist wouldn’t decided to make me wait for my braces to come off. Are all orthodontists like this? Today was also one of my best friend’s birthdays so that was fun. Today I let my urges get the best of me but I’m not worried, I have a plan that I know I’ll likely stick to for the last 12 days. I’m also going away this weekend so no fapping Friday or Saturday nights. See you guys tomorrow
     

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