try again and be strong,its a journey indeed

heres the story so far.....only a newbie,basically have tried experimrnting first on small scale with nofap and found it is possible,after 24 years of MO to P mainly or P thoughts it has desentized the brain definitely.i have reached 2 days,relapse,3,and then 4 days relapse,even felt a slight flatline on the 4th day which freaked me out but maybe my brain was adjusting to not taking in p thoughts or images.so I have reached a conclusion from this,i have avoided porn and images pretty well and do not require them but the scenarios/scenes/erotic stories etc are still implanted in my mind and when it comes to MO,guess what is used as stimulation??!! so therefore porn=M) MO=porn basically.not only must I cut away all porn and remove it,masturbation AND edging actually ARE porn itself so only by abstaining MO I realised its the only way my body and brain is going to recover.the brain plays tricks if you set day goals and tricks you into"well you made it to 4 days,have a little reward go on!"plus I think it makes you tend to edge or think thoughts just to make sure ïts still working" where one must realise im fine and need to be patient with this,it looks like maybe 30 - 60 or even 30- 90 days depending on the individual,i must be strong! reset this morning with MO. I really need to discard p thoughts and or fantasies and really hope they dissolve away from my brain that has been drowned in porn for 22 years. as 37 year old high speed wasn't around in the 90s but my dvd collection must go and books,mags etc.all of it is frustrating in the end does no help at all recover.i really want to be at stage again where im naturally turned on by presence/smell/touch of everyday women and not adapt p scenarios to them to get turned on.porn is so destructive and I am going to free myself from it's control....reset and here I go again,wish me luck guys. would like to hear any feedback of similar experiences