How do you work through triggers? How about a time of the day that is hard? After D day, everything in life was a trigger. Driving down the road, getting a cup of coffee, you name it. It is soooo much better now. There are some triggers that are still a big struggle. Has anyone ever struggled with times of the day? I start to get this guarded feeling, and a flood of ???? that come flooding in late evening. It can even kick in when I'm distracting myself with other things. When I see my husband on a device in the evening, it also really ignites this trigger response. This is just the beacon, the ice berg. Underneath, I feel all the times he chose to act out such as with this particular device and in the evenings (even though this happened at all times of the day. Well, actually I recall the worse acting out and most painful times after D day has happened mostly in the evening. Huh, no wonder I'm scared). Underneath, I also fell the disrespect for not understanding what I need to feel safe for a time, the desire to connect intimately with him but not sure if it is safe, and all sorts of questions...... He has finally been willing to put some accountability software on the device (this does help) and some other things around that. Reevaluating this piece in a few weeks. In conversation, if he gets defensive, fight or flight kicks in. He lacks empathy when what I'm really wanting is reassurance, and care. It is slowly improving. We can have an over all good day, and we start engaging in conversation and it often doesn't go so well. Maybe it feels so big because it isn't just the environmental triggers, it is trying to navigate through the pain, learning to work through the emotions, and just relational stuff like conflict resolution, and communication. I really don't believe this is a hopeless situation, but it often feels that way in it. Do I just need to get it out? If this time of day can be replaced with some kind of really safe structure maybe over time it won't feel so scary? I hope he can continue to work with me on creating safety, building trust, and finding a good routine for him. This part of recovery is super tough.