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transexual porn has taken over my life

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by sprinter, Jul 19, 2017.

  1. Jul 19, 2017 #1
    sprinter

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    I have recently discovered this website and it has motivated me to take back control of my life. I started watching porn at the age of 11, until the age of 17 I always watched straight porn however at 17 I came across transwoman porn. The first time I masturbated to transwoman porn i felt horrible and disgusted however I kept returning back and after a while I couldn't watch female porn. I would experience the best high ever of transwoman porn however after I ejaculated I promised my self that I would stop but it just got worst and worst which led me to visit a transexual escort at the age of 18 since then I have maybe visited more than 20 transexual escorts. Every time I visit one I enjoy it but after I feel disgusted with my self. It has entirely taken over my life, I can not concentrate on anything even at work I am looking at adds for escorts. I am now 21 and in these 3 years I have had a few girlfriends and hooked up with girls but i can never have a good relationship because my life has been taken over by transexual porn and escorts. When i on my way to meet a transexual escort its like it is the only thing that matters I am blinded to everything else its like my life depends on meeting her and when i finally get there my heart beats so fast and i cant control my rush of adrenaline, but as soon as i come i just want to leave as soon as possible and i become so depressed and i feel worthless and after a few hours i am on the internet again looking for other escorts and this vicious cycle continues. Please help me Ive really had enough of this I am depressed everyday I can not go a minute without thinking about transexuals. It has affected all aspects of my life, I can not enjoy anything. Ive seen many success stories on this forum therefore I have decided to share my experience as i really want to get my life back on track and put this behind me and start enjoying life.
     
    sprinter, Jul 19, 2017
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  2. Jul 19, 2017 #2
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    I suggest getting an accountability partner.
     
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  3. Jul 19, 2017 #3
    Lostinthewoods

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    Hello Sprinter, I too became drawn to transwoman Porn and Sissy hypnos and all kinds of unusual porn after years of vanilla porn. However, I never actually been with an escort or a transwoman escort. On the porn front I can explain this. You love it because you know it is wrong. It is what gives you the thrill. Then when you have orgasmed, you feel bad because you know it is wrong. However, the high or potential high is gone. Try 90 days without porn first. The transwoman fetish may subside once your brain has been rewired.

    Therapy and an accountability partner would help. As you are using escorts, this require money (duh). Do you have a relative or trusted friend whom you can confide in? They could help manage your finances and prevent you from being able to spend the money on escorts.

    Good luck
     
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  4. Jul 19, 2017 #4
    sprinter

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    Thank you for the advice guys, today is my second day of no fapping I hope to reach 90 days and see how it goes from there. I'll Also be getting a relative to manage my money.
     
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  5. Jul 19, 2017 #5
    NZT 48

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    The fact that you were normal before shows that you do not truly have a desire of this transsexual stuff. DO the 90 days, with no porn or masturbation or orgasm. Limit your internet use. If you hit a wall and fail, start again immediately. Once you have completed at least 40 or so days I would say- you will have no more desire for this stuff
     
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  6. Jul 19, 2017 #6
    Bob2132

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    Also, hiring "escorts" is illegal and you could end up facing criminal charges and having your activities made public by being arrested.
     
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  7. Sep 26, 2017 #7
    PetterLED

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    Hola amigo, veraz que puedes salir de esto, yo también he caído en el ver porno transexual y realmente se lo difícil que es salir de esto, pero espero poder lograrlo aquí en NoFat, hay muchas historias de exito y creo que pronto podremos contar una historia mas de éxito, animo amigo, veraz que si podrás dejar de tener esta adicción.
     
    PetterLED, Sep 26, 2017
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  8. Sep 26, 2017 #8
    PornFreeMe

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    I'm addicted to transwoman porn, too. It's a vile, exhilarating, shaming form of self-abuse. Avoid the escorts etc., that's something more than an addiction. As alluded to earlier, you could face criminal penalties for hiring escorts combined with the risk of rampant disease in that community. If you care about your life, I'd cease any further action with those types of people. Abuse yourself in your room alone at night, don't let others help.
     
    PornFreeMe, Sep 26, 2017
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