Torn

Bf and I looked at engagement rings yesterday then today he blew up over something stupid so after he went to work, I checked his desktop and sure enough, there were several entries of pornhub.com on his Web history. I just talked to him the other night and asked him if he was having any problems. He's been turning down sex left and right. Saying that he's too tired or not in the mood for whatever reason. I guess that I'm not necessarily surprised, because I know that relapses happen, but I'm hurt. Especially because of the timing of the PMO. Last winter I had a miscarriage. On Mother's Day I was bawling my eyes out, and hiding in bed (this was before he moved his desktop in to my house) apparently, he was PMOing while that was going on at his house. I told him that he's going to therapy and he asked if we could afford it. I told him that he goes to therapy or we're done.

 

He tried to leave and I lost my temper and yelled at him. The whole time we've been together I've been letting him build a relationship with my daughters. I was livid. He started having a pity party and said that he was just meant to be alone. He also told me that he wasn't attracted to me.

 

I told him that was the porn talking