To tell or not to tell my ex guy I am a sex addict?

Yeah I know thank you I really hit rock bottom with this last relationshit. He really broke my heart but what doesn't kill you make you stronger, right? at least he was honest at the end after almost 1 year with me, cool. He didn't reply when I asked him if he remembered the way I looked at him, I know he did...I am speechless

He is dead to me. I am deleting him from my mind. I will never allow another guy to do what my ex guys did to me ever again. I prefer being single than being treated and being with someone who will never feel something for me. It's like I dated the same kind of guy all the times. I want to stop feeling unlovable. I cannot take it anymore. I deserve to be loved

 

I mean I have to forget him as he did with me. I met 2 of my last guys on tinder. The last one on the phone even made me feel guilty that we met on tinder like it was for sex obviously. Like I could change the way we met. I had countless dates with tinder. I was addicted to that app. I would feel good and able to find a date instantly without the need to find a guy at the gym, pub or club. I used it to boost my self-esteem at the beginning and because I was very lonely. No friends and once at a house party I heard talking about this dating app. Sounds ridiculous but I wanted to have a boyfriend and thought I could do it via a dating app. I kissed 3 guys. and with 2 it lasted with each about 7 months

congrats for your 4 months btw, but what do you mean for raving your partner? I loved my last guy (I don't know why but I was happy when we were together, he was my comfort) and he was satisfying my thirst for sex. He was never tired and that for me was new and always ready. He was sweating a lot during sex, I liked making him sweat. We used to do it even 8 times during the same day, almost non-stop. I have a porn addiction too but for the last month while we were still seeing each other I was able to stop on that at least

I went back to watch porn after he left me to punish myself coz I thought what's the point of my progress if he left me? I tried to find a new guy on tinder but got really sick and disgusted and couldn't do it. Several times after he left me I re-downloaded it, talked with some guys and then deleted it. I wasn't motivated enough to meet these guys. I knew I could have ended up having sex with a guy and I didn't want to deal with the depression and non-sense after just the cover the emotional pain I had

We had sex like in porn. I asked last time we were together if he could do it in a different way with me but he took a deep breath and I let him do it as he wanted. That was really sad. I told him that I wish we never had sex in that way. It's happened because I am a sex addict and I couldn't control it and I wanted him to know that in order to explain myself and to help me. I wanted to stop so many times. For several weeks I was having excuses to not see him just to resist the temptation to have sex with him and end up doing it in the same way. I used sex and porn as tools to take my anxiety go away. Obviously it didn't work. Now I am working on doing actual progress and building something important for my career and I am starting to be proud of myself again