to get this addiction out of my life I'm going to have to get rid of another.ALCHOL. Please read

I know This is NoFap's forum but I relapsed as soon as I woke up I didn't even want to but I did. Why you ask ? I was ashamed very ashamed of my behavior from last night. I went out to the bar and got hammered and at the end of the night I started drunk texting and messaging girls on social media. I even sent pictures. I'm very disgusted with my behavior. A mature man doesn't act like this.
I always had problems with alcohol.Besides fapping I coped with my life through the bottle or I should say bottles because it was never just one. I have a damn bad habit of messaging girls inappropriate stuff that could get me into serious trouble. I even lost my wallet a few weeks back with like 40 dollars yet I go back out last night and got hammered. To only relapse this morning because I was so ashamed of my behavior from last night. I take two steps forward then three steps back. Alcohol can't be apart of my life anymore, if I want to live the life I want to live plus beat this addiction,fapping. What starts out as fun having a few drinks turns into misery because of my behavior when I'm drunk or the next day when I'm hungover.
Alcohol wakes up my demons in me.especially the demon LUST. I drink to feel pleasure yet it causes me agonizing pain. I try to escape with a few hours of pleasure but that pleasure in the big picture causes me more pain because of my actions when I'm drunk. I can't keep living like this .I'm disgusted and frustrated over my behavior of drunk messaging girls and that I relapsed today.
I don't want to live like this anymore .....

I Apolgize to anyone who commented on my sexual transmutation thread. I didn't get back to anyone becaus I was out all day yesterday drinking and I just woke up an hour ago. I'll def comment on them later when I feel better