Tired of the emptiness.

Alright, you have to "man up" and face the reality you're in mate, and not "let it be".
What is happening between you and your wife isn't an acceptable thing you should tolerate on yourself, nor let it apply on her.
You have to seek what you really want, talk with yourself about it, then have a big talk with your wife, because the way it's going, it will certainly not end well, especially for you.
So you have to stop being a spectator of your life and act in it.

Once this is out of the way, you'll have to focus on yourself, know yourself and improve yourself.
You are still young and with an unexploited potential.
1. Learn about fitness, learn about nutrition, learn about good sleep habits. (Google)
2. Create something. Creating come in many forms : arts, music, dancing, whatever you're interested in. Your goal in life shouldn't be only your wife.
3. Meditate (or pray if you're religious) to face yourself and your feelings to see that whatever you're going through, it's not an impassable obstacle.

Hope this helped you out, you're not alone, we're all here to support each other, but it's up to you to chose to take care of yourself first.

 

PMO will continue this cycle of pain and self-destruction. A big step in overcoming PMO is realizing you ARE worth it. You have been stuck in this cycle for many years and have programmed your brain to want PMO and habitually told yourself that there are no alternatives for a better life. As the gentlemen above mentioned: You MUST take control of your life instead of being a backseat driver. You have the power to change yourself, the real challenge during times of weakness is willingness. Well I can tell you right now, you are here, you shared, you reached out to others, I think the willingness is there. Step by step things will improve if you structure a bit of discipline in your life.

Also, fantasizing about a person who does not care for you only causes you more harm. Real exploration is mutual and enjoyable for all parties involved. This person sounds poisonous to your potential and you should address that in yourself.

Welcome to NoFap brother, I hope you find what you need here. Good luck on your journey.

 

I'm the opposite.

I always had girls interested and I'm pretty good looking. I still got addicted to PMO. Now coming out of it.

Today marked 17 days clean though I went to a strip club. Dumb ass move now I'm wired up with all the images back in my brain.

The reason I post here is the distinct emptiness I feel with everything. Nothing compares to that raw feeling of existence. Yes we all know it's fucking fake, make believe and destructive, but at the time nothing beats that feeling when it's a good one. Other things - being healthy, fit, productive, good at work, a good bloke, trying to connect with Existence, etc are all far more meaningful pursuits BUT nothing compares once we've wired our brains for 15 years on broadband high speed PMO.

How can a mortal man be strong enough to fight against that pull of PMO in the moments of weakness, sadness, loneliness and depression in particular?

 

Shadow Man, I feel your pain. I hope all is well with you on your NoFap journey. PM me if u need to talk.