Time to stop messing around

My drinking and fapping has been weighing me down like an anchor. I start my day in a hangover stupor, go buy beer and jerk off after drinking a couple.

Instant gratification has been running my life. Today is two days without MO, beer and cigarettes. Next Friday I've been clean for 7 days, and I'm going to buy myself a cool t-shirt which is a bit expensive but it's a thing I want for myself.

I've had enough of this half-life I've been going through for months, struggling to stay off stuff and trying to manage my anxious emotions. When I hit 30 days without instant gratification from beer, MO and cigarettes, I'm going to feel like a different person, I know this.

I'm going to start going to the gym again, I'm going to work out for strength and to look good and I'm taking up walking and meditation to manage my emotions and cravings. I'm going to stick with this and I'll change myself in 30 days. This is for me and my future, other people can do whatever they want to. Time to stop messing around.