This is my self introduction to the community.

Hey everyone. I know a lot of people are here for the same reason, so I'm not going to pretend I am some special case.

The long and short is that I have watched for a long time how pornography has had a steadily worsening impact on my life. I am not someone who should have ED. I am now a 26 year old man, I went to school to pursue Nutrition, I live a very physically active lifestyle, and listen to motivational material everyday (predominantly while weight lifting). I am the image of what you would expect someone to never have any doubt in their physical ability to be. Then, over the last few months, things changed.

I should preface this that about 9 months ago I broke up with my girlfriend of two years. That is its own story, but in it I learned that there is so much more to relationships than physical intimacy. Fast forward some, I ended up dating a girl for about a month. She was a nice girl, but being physical with her was odd, it was like she had never been with a guy that actually cared about her or her limits, and the way she spoke and talked about how she should act during sex was the same way (she was a virgin). There were a lot of reasons we cut it off. She is a really nice girl, but we didn't sync up in a lot of levels, and by the end of it the things she wanted me to do felt so...just rough...

I don't mean getting a little heavy, I mean rough in a way that made me feel like there wasn't any human connection in it. I had just gotten out of a relationship of two years, and learned that intimacy could be an emotional thing, that there was so much more after it. The bonding, the connection, but with this girl there was none of that.

I am getting a little off topic. But after, I went on vacation, and met someone. There was a sense of immediate connection. It wasn't a sort of "I think your hot" type of thing, but the kind of connection I felt when I was in that long term relationship. I missed it. It was the last night I was there, and as you can guess we went back to her place. But I was never able to really get erect at all. It was still an amazing night, and we spent the bulk of it simply close to each other talking.

I have tried to...well...masturbate since, but I haven't really had anything. I have found the only way to really get anything going is to use the more extreme methods I had for a long time. And with that, I came to the realization that I need to cut this out of my life and reset. Her and I still keep in touch, and I think something may well come of this, but I refuse to let a porn addiction stop me from having what could be a really good thing.

In two months the plan is for her to fly out her for a couple weeks. We are both outdoorsy types, and I am ecstatic for it, but that also means I have a window to get this thing in check.

So here goes. Sorry for the long post guys. I guess the big thing I am looking for is an accountability partner. I have access to everything I need to overcome this, activities, beneficial hobbies to pursue, but I need that little push just to make sure it becomes a reality.