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This is Me.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Deadp0rn, Aug 15, 2018.

  1. Deadp0rn

    Deadp0rn New Fapstronaut

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    Hi Everyone.

    I'm just getting started here and I'm not sure what to do but I think I've got a good start by at least getting active here.

    So my story, I've been PMOing for probably 12-13 years of not more now, and it had gotten bad enough that it had become almost a daily routine or a normal everyday part of my life. I didn't see an issue with it at first but as I grew more and more intimate with my girlfriend, now wife, or started to make me distance myself from her and not want to be intimate with her. It was to the point that I saw no issue doing it at a public restroom in a stall, or even at work. Let alone what type of porn I crave now.

    I think I'm ready to start a new chapter of my life and begin rebooting but I know it's going to be extremely difficult so I felt I needed a group of people who would understand my struggles and possibly help me through it.

    So this is me, I picked Deadp0rn to signify the end of using it for me, and I also love Deadpool :)
     
  2. Welcome Deadp0rn to the new chapter of your life. Porn is a rotten evil that drains intimacy and destroys relationships. I've been exactly where you have been. Years ago I started to PMO at work because I couldn't wait until the evening. I even started streaming it on my phone during my commute so I could listen to it. It consumed every aspect of my life and drained what little peace and joy I had. After many years of feeding my porn addiction, I started acting out in other ways which led me down darker paths that I'm still struggling with today.

    As you've noted already, there has already been consequences in your life, and for that I feel for you, but I also congratulate you on recognizing your problem and taking a step to resolve it. For so many that's the most difficult part. You're right in that rebooting is going to be extremely difficult, but at the same time there are plenty of resources here and elsewhere along with things you can do to make your journey a little easier. Starting a journal and regularly tracking your progress is one of those things. It can help you figure out your triggers and the underlying issues that lead you to PMO.

    If there's one thing you've successfully found is a group of people who understand your struggles. Many of us are in different phases of our recovery. Many are starting out just as you are, and many are NoFap titans who are far down the path of recovery and are graciously sharing their insights and wisdom with the rest of us. The longer you stay here and the more you put in to working your recovery, the more help you'll receive.

    I'm glad you're here and I'm available at any time if you have questions or need feedback.
     
  3. Deadp0rn

    Deadp0rn New Fapstronaut

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    Thank you! I'm glad that I've found a group that I can at least relate to, I don't know if I really want some suggestions or advice, but I'm very willing to listen to any that you have I'm still just trying to understand all of this. I'd be very interested in finding someone who's been through similar issues and struggling with the same source so I might be able to understand how I got to where I'm at now.
     
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  4. ReadyToStop

    ReadyToStop Fapstronaut

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    Welcome @Deadp0rn . You made the right choice joining. We're all in similar situations. Thanks for telling us your story and I want to wish you good luck.
     

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