This is for you all!

So okay. Taking a huge risk here for you guys! Will fap again. No urges, just want to understand the difference. I will come back, no worries! Will try to to this for some time and then climb back
Journey was easy. Maybe next time will feel different but f it. Let's go!
You can judge me or see me as an retarded idiot, but I want to experimentate for you guys to report feelings of doing this all of the sudden.

Haha, wish me luck!

 

I did it. Real fast, real... Nice? Dont thi k of doing it again cause... It was kind of boring to watch porn. That's for kids. Orgasm was lets say good. Long and good.
Dont try this at home, fellas! Lets see what tomorow will offer to me.

 

If someone doesn't understand philosophy behind this:
I'm testing myself. It was too easy and too boring most of the times. I need need that darknesd for some minute and I need that comeback energy again.
No I won't fap again in a long time, no I won't turn on a porn for a long time or even forever. At least its not on my plans, its not on my to do list. I am trying to see myself from all angles, from all sides. I want to see my real power and feel that success again!