Thinking about suicide

Bro, I know it seems like everything is shit right now but things will get better, I promise. You have a whole life ahead of you. I used to fap 5 times a day. My dick looked liked chewing gum haha. Nowadays I'm more aware of how much damage that amount of porn and masturbation can do to you. I used to feel much like you do but now I have a wonderful girlfriend and everyday I'm one step closer to recovery.

Don't give up! Think about all of the success stories on here!
You can do it too!

 

A lot of times life looks bleak and impossible. There are a lot of things that help. Suicide is not one of them. When down, I have been helped by a good dose healthy living: exercise, a good night's rest every night, healthy meals, helping others, talking with others. . . I am also a lot better off with a solid reboot.
I hope you will get a good night's sleep and start tomorrow with a good breakfast and some physical activity.
Your penis isn't permanently broken, and I am glad you are aware of its condition. You have been put on notice that you need to give it a rest. You will be excited by the results long before you finish your reboot. I don't know how many times I mistreated my penis and panicked. It is tender, and really should not be mistreated, but in the heat of the moment, i could rub it bloody. Still, it always healed, and made a father of me. Yours will be fine, if you will give it a chance to recover.
You will also be fine. It sounds like you have great parents; you are so lucky. If you can't talk to them about this, there are school counselors, pastors, priests, and doctors. Choose carefully, but find somebody you can talk with. You can also find an AP or a support group here, but a face to face talk is the best.
Best of luck. Stay strong and enjoy the results.

 

One thing you can do is TELL YOUR PARENTS!!! Do you trust them? Do you love them? Do they love you? Well, tell them. They can help you. At least, they can help you find help.
They'll be consequences to telling them: you may have your computer taken away. some loss of freedom. etc.
But it's worth it!

Believe me, as a parent myself, i'd want to know.

You're dancing with the devil in this. Let your parents help you get better.

You're obviously a good kid. It gets better. Everyone needs help sometimes. Ask for help.

 

Bro I understand everything isn't going well right now but you have to always keep in mind you're only 14! like the user Noonoon mentioned above 'tell your parents' it may seem embarrassing or really hard to do so but the worst feeling as parents which you mentioned raised you pretty well is to found out you're going through depression and having suicidal thoughts. they have years and years of life experience and I'm sure they can help you some way.
just please understand your only 14 there be times when times are hard but that's nothing compared to the enjoyments life will bring to you. I'm very very very sure you'll have a fruitful life filled with happiness and enjoyments if you keep strong and positive and let a loved one know about your situation

 

You sound like you're suffering from severe brain fog.

 

I wish I had your insights when I was your age. You know PMO is crummy and feel bad about it - I felt bad but it was just mindless guilt and that did not help me one way or another. You clearly have a good idea what you DON'T want to do - so perhaps you can give yourself a good idea of what you DO want to do too. If you are stuck for ideas as to what this might be, try a website called 'The Art of Manliness' which has podcasts and lots of interesting articles about living a full life. Also, if you are still feeling depressed at this stage - TALK. If you are part of a religious community, talk to an elder or cleric in confidence [e.g. Catholics have Confession for these kind of 'chest-clearing' exercises]. There are also things you can learn to do to make yourself more of a pro-active person in your own life [e.g. learn to cook meals from scratch and make them for your family, learn a language, or an art/craft]. And if you slip up - it happens. It takes people a long time to kick a habit, but as the saying goes: fall down 7 times, get up 8.

 

Gosh dude, sorry you're feeling so down. You're so young and this has only been ailing you for a year so you actually have a better chance at beating this than a lot of us do! This is going to be really embarrassing, but noonnon made a very good point. Tell your parents that your addicted, having self-harmful thoughts and need help. Trust me man, I wish I would have done that when I was in my teens instead of trying to hide it. You sound like you have good parents, so they love you unconditionally and want the absolute best for you. It may require some discipline and counseling but your chances of recovering from this are much greater with help from others and accountability partners. I think a couple of them also mentioned talking to a pastor. Not sure what your religious community is or if you're part of one, but a great pastor who does not preach condemnation would be helpful because he's seen it a thousand times. So please be courageous and keep doing what you're doing!

 

My little brother, im a 23 year old virgin, I have the top left of my penis numb from a 7 year chronic condition of PM, I have had major depression for 9 years, I was a hardcore druggie for 5 years. I feel so fucking empty inside, I want to end my life every single day even now, but what keeps me here is my commitment to absention from drugs( 19 months) PMO(156 days), my career, my spiritual journey, and all of it wont go to waste if I can tell someone like you, who I can partially relate to, that if you really want to change you have to SERIOUSLY DEDICATE yourself to change, and it wont happen overnight, IT TAKES PATIENCE AND TIME, little one. You have so much time left on this planet, youre going through rough times but its up to you how to handle it. I'll pray for your bruised soul to heal, I hope to hear from you soon!

 

Man, I'm so sorry to hear that . I suggest you talk to a therapist so you can get helped out. I also recommend that you download porn filters, and distract yourself from all triggers and urges for you to fap. And don't worry about being a virgin, because that's why better than having "meaningless sex" with someone. Hang in there, though, I know you fight this addiction! I wish you the best of luck, and stay strong!

 

its normal at your age bro, every guy at your age faps. i give you allowance to do it because its perfectly normal. if you fap much your dick behaves strangely but it will cure even if it doesnt look like its going well. i had e.g. problems there was all blood over me after fapping and i thought its very bad but finally it got repaired. u are 14, people dont lose virginity at that age. wait till 20 or something.... and you are perfecttly OK and normal so just levae this site and find enjoyment in your daily things

 

If I was half as self-aware at your age as you are I'd have beaten this addiction a long time ago. Everyone who's replied to your comments knows exactly what you're going through. You need to focus your thoughts on healing on the inside, first. Don't worry about kids or sex or any of that for now. You need to focus on your personal growth and healing. I'd 100% recommend speaking with someone you trust, doesn't have to be your parents but someone you know will be supportive and understand your struggles. We're all here for you!

 

go see a Psychiatrist, he can really help you overcome this situation.

 

Hey man your still young, you have alot of life ahead of you. I wish I would've known about nofap when I was your age. Your lucky, most of us are in our 20's and 30's with jobs, families, and wife's. Add a porn addiction on top of all that and you got one hell off a tough time. My advice for you is to quit beating yourself up, we all make mistakes, the fact your trying to quit so young already shows to your a good kid. Keep your head up and stay strong

 

Hey man... May God bless you with the strength to continue... I think it might be a good idea to tell your parents, because they probably know something is up anyway.I had to make the decision to tell someone, so I told my wife... Letting it out from the dark takes a lot of power away from what you're dealing with and when at least one person around you knows what you're struggling with you wont feel so alone. At this point where I am now is the best I've dealt with it... partly because my wife knows and I know she's there for me. There's no need to contemplate suicide, life still hasn't even begun for you little dude. Remember your parents love you, they will support you...

 

You're a good kid, and you will get better. Believe in the process! Life is beautiful, don't think of dying!

 

Hello bro, I know it feels like you never are going to be able to over come this, that is going to pursue you for the rest of your life, guess what nothing last forver, even our problems, the problems we encounter through our life none of them last forever.

My problem is bigger than yours, I’ve been addicted to PMO for 14 years, that’s the half of my life and your whole age! But I’m confident that if I stick to the program (nofap), and to my personal improvement process I’ll get over this and I’m 100% sure you will too.

I have had suicidal thoughts as well, but be strong, what does not kill you gets you stronger, believe me. This is a processs a journey and it’s about consistency and strength, not to be the first or the faster just be consistent, keep fighting and eventuallly the victory will come, we can conquer our fears and I’m sure we’ll conquer them together bro. Stay strong keep fighting along side me.

Here is some advice of things you could do to make your way to success:

1. Meditate: it will help you to clear your mind from failure and be in a more peaceful state overall.

2. Excersise: this will increase the blood flow in your body, will produce endorphins that will actually help you to feel better and get in a better mood.

3. Quit porn masturbation: of course the big objective, for some people 30 days work for other takes some more, just stick to it and eventually you’ll see the benefits.

4. Ultimately talk to your parents: they love and they will help you, if you feel like the world is all above you and you can’t take it anymore just tell them, it will take away a lot of the weight you are felling right now.

Stay strong, let’s keep fighting together.