The STRUGGLE to success

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Ezpz, May 31, 2017.

  1. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    So ive already known about nofap since november 2016, i have made it 86 days on the first try, then had a bit of a slip up 2 or 3 times a week after that. Now im back on the journey again this time im not going to fail (i hope not).

    I have now cut out gaming completely, which i think was holding me back from making any progress and i thought posting here might help aswell. My main problems i have been battling are: brain fog, tiredness, lack of motivation, ear ringing and fairly poor vision. To name a few, there are many more

    Anyways im already 18 days into this journey but i still think its a great idea to start logging this regardless!
     
    Last edited: May 26, 2018
  2. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 18
    Overall rating of how im feeling 5/10

    Feeling better today than the last 3 days i was quite physically exhausted and felt a little emotionless. Its been hard to sleep and ive been having very vivid dreams. Made it through work okay, tired in the mornings and afternoons
     
  3. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 19
    Overall feeling 6/10

    Started the first 10 minutes really motivated for the day but that quickly fell away as i became quite tired and exhausted again. Again it lifted a little bit around lunch time and got worse after lunch.

    I think i am im a flatline, feeling very lonely and very depressed. No motivation at all. Really hoping this will get better in the coming days.
     
  4. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 20
    Todays overall feeling 3/10

    Ive got to say today has been one of the lowest days ive had, i had the day off work but ive been so tired and de motivated the whole day. Managed to get my car washed, went for a long walk and a bit of excersice aswell. I had to push myself.

    Ive been feeling so depressed and lonely today, i just want this feeling to go away. Hopefully tomorrowis a better day.
     
  5. rhockey14

    rhockey14 Fapstronaut

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    We all have our ups and downs, but remember your end goal!
    Keep up the good work Brother!
    -R
     
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  6. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    There is no doubt in my mind that im going to get there, its a matter of when whats bugging me, hopefully your journey is going well my friend
     
  7. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 21
    Overall feeling 6/10

    Feeling a little better today, i was out most of the day looking at stuff i needed for the new house so it was good it took my mind off things. Still fairly tired throughout the day but i felt a little less lonely today. Still not feeling great though and the urge to fap tonight is there a little bit, this voice in my head saying fuck it lets just do it. But i know better and im seeing this through regardless. Thats why i came to this forum to post this now and i think it is helping a bit.

    I will see this through, so im going to try and do something constructive for the rest of the night, maybe ill go down the park for a while.

    3 weeks down!!
     
  8. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 22
    Overall feeling 6.5/10

    Today has been so much better. Ive had a lot less anxiety, depression has calmed down and i dont feel as lonely. Still tired parts of the day but definitely an improvement.

    I have been busy with packing stuff for the new house. I dalso felt a little more confident in general so im hoping i continue to get better, it would be nice to see some improvement for the hard work ive been puting in.

    Huge urge tonight, thats why i decided to jump on the forum and post now, which really helps!

    This has really been one of the better days in a long time

    Onwords i go!
     
  9. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 23
    Overall feeling 5.5/10

    I was really hoping for a better day today, really quite tired throughout the day again, brain fog was there and wasnt really feeling that great.

    Moving stuff over to the new house today so im excited to be moving. Maybe this move will be enough to kick me out of this down period. Huge urges again tonight and they always seem to come at around the same time, so again i decided to post and read here to help.

    Hoping tomorrow is a better day as i have a lot to do
     
  10. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 24
    Overall feeling 6.5/10

    Today went pretty well. I had a little more motivation than usual so i got stuck into what i needed to to start my business. Usually i was put it off and was too scared to start but i made a massive start today! Getting all that done made me feel a little better.

    Had crazy urges today though and i edged a little bit. Still here though, next time im going to put a cold towel on my junk until the urge goes away. Im not going to be defeated by this. Im going to be stronger throughout the next few days.

    Bring on 1 month
     
  11. Familymanbrad

    Familymanbrad Fapstronaut

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    Awesome thread! I am on my second attempt as well, I went 35 days on my first go! I'm rooting for you!
     
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  12. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Thanks man! We are both going to make it!
     
  13. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 25
    Overall feeling 5.5/10

    Actually feeling a little down and anxiety has come back a bit. I think this is because im down on myself after letting myself edge.

    Starting to play video games again, ill have to really tighten up on that aswell. (Trying to quit a video game addiction aswell)

    Feeling quite irritable today aswell but on the plus side i feel like something has changed. I feel like i let myself down yesterday and ive got this feeling now that i know it wont happen again.

    I feel as though i know my barriers and limits now. As long as i stay within then, i wont relapse
     
  14. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 26
    Overall feeling 6.5/10

    Feeling a lot better today. Each day for me now feels like its getting a little better for me. The last few days i have got a tonne of stuff done and now my business is almost up and running. If this were a week ago i would not have had the motivation.

    Motivation is coming back, my self confidence is rising, brain fog is slowly lifting, my eyesight is getting better and my tinnitus (ear ringing) is going away slowly too.


    Still have a bit of social anxiety, still sometimesstruggle to think properly and form proper sentences.

    All in all i think im making big improvements and i am very thankful for that
     
  15. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 27
    Overall feeling 6/10

    Today has been okay. Again my energy is fluctuating. I go from being quite tired and out of it to somewhat normal it seems and that changes throughout the day. Still quite tired in the mornings and after lunch it seems.

    Ive been spending the whole day moving stuff to the new house. So its been a really busy day but managed to get everything done. Im definitely dealing with each day better and better. Life isnt such a chore as it was 7 months ago and im still so grateful for that. Busy days ahead so not really thinking about fapping off. I Havnt got time for such nonsense.
     
  16. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 28 + 29
    Overall feeling 5.5/10

    Cant really say to much about the last few days. I went out drinking saturday night and was hung over all of sunday. I probably shouldnt have as i feel like it hurt my progress a bit but i had a decent time. Its been easier to talk to people now and ive been feeling more confident within myself which is good.

    Today marks day 30. These last 10 days have gone so fast i have barely thought about nofap. Feeling like the healing process is still going well but i want to make sure i dont slip this time. Ill post again tonight for the day 30 review
     
  17. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 30
    Overall feeling 5.5/10

    I think im quite tired from the weekend still. Ive been fairly exhausted most of the day while at work but i still pushed through.

    After work i didnt just be lazy, i really pushed myself and went to the shop and got what i needed to make dinner. I did all the jobs i had to do.

    One thing im super happy about is im pushing myself more each day, procrastinating less and getting much more done. Bring on the next 30 days
     
  18. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    *I want to make a small note today*

    Things lately for nofap have been really easy, i have urges sometimes but i dont really care and im really not interested in fapping at all. I want to make sure i stay on top of things though and not get too complacent. Its really easy to slip up when you feel like you cant fuck up.

    It doesnt take muh for anyone to slip upor have a lapse in concentration so i really want to keep my guard up and do everythig i can to stay on the right path. I thought i had it last time and out of no where it seemed i relapsed after 84 days.
     
  19. Ezpz

    Ezpz Fapstronaut

    Day 31
    Overall feeling 5/10

    So i identified a trigger today, i heard of a porn site i didnt know of and i had this huge urge to check it out. I took a cold shower after having this urge and now im writing this.

    All in all it wasnt a great day, i felt super exhausted most of the day. I think this has something to do with me getting drunk on the weekend still, i think it was a bad idea while trying to recover from this so im going to try to tone it down a bit.

    Im going to get an early sleep tonight so hopefully i can wake up better for work tomorrow.
     
  20. Cosmo Reed

    Cosmo Reed Fapstronaut

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    Keep going man! Well done on 30 days, you're doing great.
     
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