The Lost Diary

28-03 2018 10:40 PM
Hey Everyone
After successfully maintaining my nofap streak for about 150 days after my last relapse I decided to start weightlifting. Everything was going well in my life. I asked out a girl and our relationship was going great. But in last two weeks our relationship is not going well. Due to frustration of failing relationship and stress of upcoming exams, I relapsed about 2 wees ago. After that i am fapping daily. I just can't control myself. Due to this my relationship is suffering even more. Right now i am laying on my bed trying to sleep. I had just fapped 2 times. Oh God i can't help it. Oh God save me. Everything is falling apart. My new streak starts from this day.

29-03-2017 6:26 AM
Just woke up. I am feeling a bit of tightness in my head. I am feeling strong argue to fap again.

29-03-2017 3:07 PM
Came back from college. I am feeling very exhausted. Getting very strong argues to fap. Oh God. I hope I won't give up.

 

Which day you are in ?

 

29-03-2018 11:11 PM
I felt very strong argue to relapse today, but i managed to survive without fapping. I am lying on my bed trying to sleep. My relationship continues to suffer. I am feeling very depressed and suicidal. Oh God I love that girl so much. Please help me. This headache and brain fog is not going away.

 

30-03-2017 08:24 AM
No argues, just feeling a bit exhausted. I have observed one thing about PMO addiction. When I fap i am not usually very turned on or anything like that. I just relapse for no reason.
I usually relapse when i am in stress or depressed.

 

01-04-2017 08:43 AM
Lying on my bed. I managed to stay clean till now, but I am getting very strong argues to fap. About relationship, its almost over. Depression is eating me. I hope I do not screw it further by falling into PMO again.