The journey starts

Hey everyone!
I'm a 19-year-old university student. I started masturbating when I was 12 years old. I actually didn't care too much about masturbation or porn back then but I only started doing it because my friends kept talking about it. So you know I didn't want to become an outsider in this case. But the thing is when my friends talked about masturbation or porn I never got involved in the conversation but instead i kept quiet. The reason for that is that I was actually too shy and even ashamed to join the conversation.

So yeah last year I tried to stop masturbating but I only was able to do it for a month.
After that I simply couldn't handle myself anymore and masturbated at least 2 times or sometimes even 3 times a day. So today I decided that I'd stop masturbating because I'm actually physically and mentally sick of it.

Thanks for reading!

 

Recognise my weak points which lead me to porn/masturbation and fight them off and living every day separately knowing that it will be an everyday fight at least for a while. Lastly reward myself (nothing significant) for achieving a certain goal.

 

Day 1 is finished!
I actually am surprised how well it went. I was very motivated and energetic through the whole day and I didn't have any urges. I did have casual boners but they didn't bother me at all. I'm expecting the following days to be harder since I know day 1 is always the easiest day for me (I have done no PMO challenges before knowing this site)

 

Day 2
The day was quite boring since I didn't do much but it went well. I had some sexual urges and the worst one happened when I was on my way to home from university. I was in the bus and in the midway I suddenly got extremely horny and all kinds of sex thoughts went though my mind. It luckily happened in public transport so I was not able to do anything bad. The horniness went away when i hopped off the bus and didn't come back. Other than that nothing worth mentioning happened.

 

Day 3
Weekends are boring for me as usual so I was at home all day. I helped my sister clean the house since my parents were shopping outside. After that I started studying a bit for my exam that is 2 weeks. I had no sexual urges whatsoever so it was a good day.

 

I'm on my 4th day atm but I thought I'd post and idea that might help others as well. So yesterday my mother set the alarm on her phone at 6.30 AM but she forgot her phone in the living room. So when the alarm rang I woke up at that time to shut it. So then I realized that it gives me a reason to get up earlier and not stay in bed.

Phone is a huge trigger to me for PMO and I've used to do it when I've woken up and still in bed. So today before I go to sleep I'll set the alarm up to a certain time and leave my phone on my studying desk so it's far enough from my bed (in other words unreachable) and see whether it works or not. Maybe I'm going to change the alarm tone to something creepy like the theme of x-files.

 

Day 4
I stayed at home and studied. I also went to my karate training. I didn't have any urges so it was a succesful day once again.

 

Day 5
When I woke up I had some urges but I was able to beat them. It had something do to with the dream I had althought I don't quite remember what it was. Other than that the day went normally and didn't have any sexual urges.

 

Day 6
Yet another succesful day thank God.
Nothing really intersting happened. I didn't have any urges and I didn't have any sexual thoughts because I've been avoiding all kinds of things that might trigger me for pmo. I've even avoided looking or having long interactions with the other gender just in to be sure nothing bad comes to my mind.

 

Day 7
A week completed without pmo! Yesterday was quite an easy day when it comes to no pmo but I actually realized that sometimes triggers pop up to you when you do not expect them. So I was yesterday searching for a document in youtube about the romani comunity in iraq. So when I wrote the word in arabic in the search bar and hit enter....
Absolutely nothing close to the document came up but instead triggers left and right. So I hopelessly scrolled down hoping to find the document but ended up closing the site.

 

Thank you very much!

 

Day 8
I had some urges but was able to beat them. It helps a lot when you don't allow yourself to think about pmo and keep yourself occupied

 

Day 9
Hardest day so far. I got urge ambushed while I was studying and lost concentration. I was able to handle it quite well but I still felt horny. I'm kind of dissapointed that I didn't accomplish much in studying because of that. I even had an erotic dream for the first time in a couple of months. However it was not a wet dream so I start day 10 "clean" if you know what I'm meaning.

 

Thank you very much appreciate the support!