The Journey of Hardship In Pursuit of Glory

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  1. Kuiperbelt

    Kuiperbelt Fapstronaut

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    Day 1.
    This is the beginning of my daily journal. I have had many decent streaks from 12 to 60+ days over the last few months, but I seem to keep eventually giving in to M/O and sometimes even PMO.

    I am starting this journal as an additional means of accountability and hope my daily struggles might in some way help others who are struggling with similar temptations.

    I'm 29. Single. Male. Just got out of a 7 year relationship that ended and I'm sure much of our problems all started with my addiction to PMO. I wish to live a life of purity, free from lies, and isolation and filled with the nourishing power of a meaningful and loving relationship with another human being.

    Although I've been on this journey for the last year, I am ready for serious breakthroughs and I hope to realize these desires starting now. Please stay tuned if you're at all interested in my story.
     
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  2. Kuiperbelt

    Kuiperbelt Fapstronaut

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    Day 2.

    Yesterday was a wonderful day of success. My day started with serious urges to view porn of women in lingerie. The thoughts kept haunting my mind and I was teetering on the edge of giving in. Since I just relapsed, my mind kept telling me that one more lapse doesn't set me back much. What a joke. I sat down in my room and engaged in prayer for strength against temptation. A few minutes later I got up and walked out of the house putting the urges behind me. This was success number 1.

    Later in the day I was shopping at IKEA. I came across a beautiful young woman and we caught eyes and both smiled. I kept coming across her and eventually told myself wht don't you approach her and ask for her number. I eventually mustered up the courage after my heart pounded in my chest. I walked up to her and her friend, said hello, and began telling her I felt compelled to tell her how gorgeous she was. She looked flattered but before I knew it, I noticed a glimmer of sparkle from her left hand. I quickly asked are you married and she said "yes". I quickly wrapped up my approach and wished her a wonderful day. I walked away energized feeling good that I mustered up the courage just to ask. This is something I haven't done in 8 years having just got out of a long term relationship. This was success #2.

    Later that evening I was invited to hang with my best friend and two young women for a night out on the town. To keep the story short, I had a phenomenal time getting to know this beautiful young woman who was visiting from California. I felt great knowing I made her laugh all night and made her feel special. I did not push my luck but left the night so charged from the experience. She leaves back for California soon which is unfortunate because I could see myself with her. I still see this as a serious success that I couldn't imagine even just a week ago. This was success #3 of my day.

    If you feel lost, please try putting your faith in something greater. He just may turn the tides in your life and bring about the opportunity that you've been waiting so long for. Stay strong brothers and stay tuned for more as I walk the path towards purity.
     
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  3. Contentful T

    Contentful T Fapstronaut

    I see you vanished from here back in January. Hope you are still making progress wherever you are.
     

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