You're right there, the point of abstaining is weak if you're not properly in it for yourself and in it for someone in the future. A lot of what you say is the truth but you're kind of doing the opposite to me now. I said on the first post of nofap I didn't see any bad effects of M on me in 2017 I meant it. I have been gifted with a good physique, attractive and never found any social awkwardness so the effects were just having girls look at me a lot. I used to do very similar things to what you're doing now and it was fun doing it at the time but now I kind of wish I don't personally coz religion for one and I know realistically most of the girls were doing the same thing as me and talk to many different guys and don't/won't care coz they don't hold themselves in high regard so will move on to the next guy after so it was kind of a waste of time looking for an empty thrill. s dangerous aswell, full of triggers. So recently I cut girls out of my life completely, not in a gay way I am still very attracted but I'm not even focusing on them and deleted most of them off my snapchats so I dont see them and I've not been more focussed ever on myself and my religion. I realised I'm not gonna waste my life looking or talking to girls at all but completely focus within and make myself the best version I can be so that's what my mission is now. Humans are weak, so I am gonna train myself to be next level.