The beggining of something big

Hi guys,

Im just a teen, who is in need of some motivation to achieve my dreams, i feel as masturbation is holding me back, i often feel lonely,i dont have a girlfriend so i it happens every so often i indulge in masturbation. I feel horrible about it, every time i masturbate i feel shame and guilt.Shortly after i orgasm i promise my self that im going to end this addiction, but a day later my brain would be in such a terrible mess, feeling horny, not knowing if i should masturbate or not and 9/10 my brain would convice me that i should masturbate even though i know deep down that i should not, i indulge, i feel really dissapointed with my self so i dicided to break my silence and talk about my addiction.Wish you guys luck with you nofap journey

Thanks for your time