As a preface to the following discussion I just want to say I am struggling in a sexless marriage and am not yet willing to seek a divorce. As such, sexual transmutation has become a focus for me both to avoid PMO and also to find a new way to focus this sexual energy. As I'm sure many of you have experienced, and reported, the main reason we are here is this sexual energy is compelling. Ignoring it doesn't work. I discovered taoist inner cultivation practices from members of this group. After nearly 6 months of practicing these techniques (mostly the microcosmic orbit meditation) I recently succeeded in being able to channel the energies and become "multiorgasmic", that is redirecting sexual energy upward into the head and experiencing non ejaculatory orgasms. At first this seemed like the holy grail for me. No PM just pleasure while still maintaining the energy inside. This new development made me wonder what the real goal is with transmutation. I certainly have channeled the energy and extra time that comes from not doing PMO into exercise, meditation, yoga, art and being more present in my daily work. The true sexual transmutation results in persistent energy which I am finding both life affirming and challenging in that it is forcing me to challenge long held views on what the long term goals of this practice are. Have you asked yourself where you want your NoFap to take you once you achieve your goal of a month, 3 months, etc.? There does seem to be an undercurrent of self imposed suffering in this nofap practice with a lot of sadness and personal frustration with "setbacks". I am looking forward to the day I don't have a "count" in my head for how long it's been since... After a few days of this intense circulating pleasure inside I had a release last night. No sexual thoughts just a spontaneous emission. I find my body after 1-3 weeks releases this pent up energy no matter how I try to transmute it. I initially felt bad as if I'd failed on my path but now I am trying to really understand if this is a true failure or just my body finding its equilibrium. Since this type of spontaneous release has happened every 10-20 days for several months, and I've avoided the chaser effect, the energy seems to remain mostly intact inside me. For those of you who have practiced semen retention and have made it for months I'm curious how you handle this energy. Do you just have a reduction in the energy over time or have you come to other ways to transmute it beyond exercise, meditation etc.?