Hi all , so I have just joined this site to overcome the addiction . I am 27 and have been m’ing since I was about 12 . I don’t have an addiction to p but would occasionally watch it . I come from a Muslim background and did have a lot of guilt and shame towards it , which I’ve learned to manage and not internalise the shame which I was doing before which carried the cycle of addiction . Before I thought prayer alone would stop it , but I know that’s not realistic . I have cut down over the years , however the longest I have gone without m is 3 weeks . I have never reached a whole month , so as I m I would never get any wet dreams . I started NoFap 2 weeks ago, and I fell into Pmo my after 13 days after accidentally seeing something which triggered me to watch p, I would not normally see as the feeling and triggers were so intense . The negative feelings were intense and now I am starting again . I have had only one short term relationship and I am currently in one . I don’t like the feeling afterwards, I feel empty , guilty , low , ashamed . There was a time when I let go of all the negative feelings surrounding it and just wanted to accept myself as a sexual being which I felt I previously was conditioned not to after going counselling for other issues . However at this point in time it does not bring joy to my life and is an addiction . Even though I am in a relationship atm that’s not the reason alone why I want to quit amongst the negative feelings loneliness and shame it brought about I feel if I continue I will lose the interest and drive of doing things with a partner and experiencing real intimacy !