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Struggling since VP Gore invented the internet (and to some degree earlier)

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Chris Christian, Jan 23, 2017.

  1. Chris Christian

    Chris Christian New Fapstronaut

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    I am a 54 year old male. First time masturbating at 12. By my Freshman year at college, I really wanted to stop but could not. Then became a christian and all but easily stopped for about 2.5 years. Moved away from the church and friends and started again. Then have struggled off and on since. Moved back with the parents as a single for few months when I was 23. I found my dad had a Playboy channel on his satellite TV. I recalled struggling a couple times with that. Got married and have been married since 1985. Struggled periodically with masterbation. Always had an immediate regret after orgasim. Then with the invention of the Internet I found the convenience of hitting a few buttons to find porn too tempting at times (late nights alone at the office). It has only gotten worse with high speed internet and videos. My opinion is that the Porn combined with masturbation makes masterbation many times lustful and therefore damaging. My wife does not like to touch, kiss, cuddle, hold hands, or have sex. We have spoken about it many times and she says she does not have any sex drive. She rejected me again yesterday so I went to my shop/office and 'fap'ed. I estimate about every couple of weeks I 'fap'. Most of the time, I want to change and break this habit, but then a lone at the office, with the excuse of no human intimacy, something draws me back to 'fap'ping. I have reason that my friends are tiring of me being open to them with same issue, so I thought I would try an online group ... with hope of finding comrades to help me overcome this habit.

    I have reviewed this site a couple of times, but I am not sure how to use it.
     
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