Hi there, I am not really sure what to put here or how to start, but every journey starts with the first step. Joining this site and being accountable for my actions is my first step. Today is my 36th birthday, and quite frankly I'm tired of porn and sex leading my life. I was sexually abused by a cousin from the time I was 12 until I was 16 years old. During this time I found my brother's porn stash and that started my addiction. In my youth I could MO 7 or 8 times a day whether I was watching porn or not. I also racked up the sexual partners. Now that I turn 36 I look back on a marriage to a woman who was just as messed up as me sexually, raising 3 kids on my own, and stumbling into porn like sissy training and I can't get an orgasm from regular sex no matter how hard I try. I want to be free from this addiction and have healthy relationships. I am hoping this process will get me there. I'm looking forward to my second chance.