Struggling at life

So I've always been into personal development for the past 10 years, but the past year it's non-existent, I was dog training, contracting and training with another dog behaviourist...Basically working for myself, things were going well until she let me go from her business without warning and unexpectedly. I invested money and time. I think that was the final straw.

I feel empty, I'm struggling, I'm having more bad day then good. I know i have so much to be grateful for, ive got my soulmate, a beautiful 2 year old and another one on the way but mentally and emotionally struggling.

I'm now back to working "9 to 5" type job...continental shifts, 4 on 4 off, just feel every time i take one step forward i go two steps back.

Anyway i'm here for help, to get me back into personal development, advice, self-improvement exercises i can do, meditation, gratitude etc Just need pointing in the right direction, as at the moment i feel hopeless to do it myself

 

Thanks Brother!

Just to add also I think it doesn't help as well as I'm worrying about money constantly, my pay drop quite a bit, I've had this loan and credit card in the back off my mind for a while now and with our mortgage with got a bad rate...due to credit history. So we're paying £200 more a month than we should be and 3 quarters of that is interest!! Only have to wait another year and we can remortgage and get a lot better rate.

I know a stupid insignificant thing to worry about, but struggle shaking it out of my mind.

 

My wage is average but most likely alot more than in third world countries. If only Youtube was that easy to earn money quick ha! Plus don't really think that is relevant to myself