Struggle with porn! Now getting Impatient.

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by PirateX, Dec 13, 2018.

  1. PirateX

    PirateX Fapstronaut

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    On Tuesday it was my 27th birthday so on 1st Dec I vowed to myself, For not watching porn anymore. I realized it was dragging my life down.
    Today I was really carving so searched something online found nofap. I ‘m just writing this to make my mind clear. Stay positive needed some place or someone to say something. As i don’t have much family or friends where I live.
    I’m realizing as i’m Writing that my mind has stopped wandering little bit.
    I hope that I have found something to keep me on right track. I know it’s going to be difficult to brake at least 10 years of same habit.
    This is my first I hope it’s in right section.
     
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  2. Myfortress

    Myfortress Fapstronaut

    You are in the right place. You can do it keep going. Your off to a good start.
     
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  3. bleong1234

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    Keep it up! I found journaling really helpful like you, try to stay busy. Also know this is something you can't do by yourself and making connections is one of the best way to help with your addiction. I would really try to answer the question "what does porn do for you?" Answering that question helps in understanding why we watch porn and can help in recovery.
     
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  4. Peace467

    Peace467 Fapstronaut

    I get you - I hate being single but its taken me a long time to accept that.

    There are rough days and weeks and easy days and weeks.

    Find something to centre youself on (for me this is God, so praying, journaling and meditating and the things I run to in times of need). It gets easier over time if you address the way your feeling, but 46 days in I am having a real low period so you will always need to be on your guard!!
     
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  5. PirateX

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    Well it’s way too difficult today. I was free today, so started watching a movie, the movie had sex scene. I fast forward the movie at that point, but it triggered my urges.
    I’m feeling really depressed, I’m just hoping to get through this day. At my job right now I can’t concentrate, not happy deep inside.
    I have learned that this is what triggers my urges. I have no clue how to make it stop?
    19 days is still too early for me I guess.
    Can I start a journal? That way I will have something to keep my mind of & I can share something that will help me ease my urges
     
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  6. Myfortress

    Myfortress Fapstronaut

    You can do it. Praying for you.
     
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  7. PirateX

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    I haven’t smoked since the day I quitted. I just smoked half today, just hoping to get through this day.
     
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  8. Hold strong mate, I know it's very difficult, but you will be rewarded on future. I am going through a hard time and just found that I can't deal with my loneliness. Before NoFap I was "medicating" my loneliness with porn, but it doesn't solve the problem. Know I must truly learn how to deal with my feelings and that's living.

    This is just a difficult time and it will pass away, just keep strong on your purpose!
     
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  9. Grandpa61

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    Focus only on today! You can do this my friend!
     
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  10. PirateX

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    Well thankx to everyone, I went to GYM yesterday. It really helped me took the edge off.
    Next time I will try to see some movie that won’t have any intimidating scene. Also trying to cut down on tv & internet.

    An amazing thing happened this morning I slept almost 10 hr. After a very long time, plus that morning wood an extra bonus, no jokes I really had to focus before peeing.
    Bright side getting better from that PIED.
    Thankx again to everyone.
     
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  11. PirateX

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    Weird thing happened today, I manage a gas station so sort of my job his customer service. A really nice looking girl came, she tried to chat with me( my response was ok I guess). But I didn’t feel sexually aroused while chatting. I wasn’t confident was feeling shy. My question anyone else had that sort of thing.
    She was really beautiful & sexy. But I just didn’t get that click, it’s not just her so many girls come to my store I just don’t feel excited. I had history of at least 10 yrs of PMO & another 5 for magazine, pictures MO.
    Any advice would be nice, not feeling too well about this.
     
  12. countitjoy5

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    it's not hard, if you don't throw gas on the fire by browsing around it will eventually break.
     
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  13. ShotDunyun

    ShotDunyun Fapstronaut

    Morning wood at 22 days? Im jealous!
     
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  14. Myfortress

    Myfortress Fapstronaut

    How long is your latest streak.
     
  15. Myfortress

    Myfortress Fapstronaut

    I just backtracked and realized that you are going in three weeks. I would say that you had a normal reaction to those girls. After a couple of weeks I would have probably entertained some sort of fantasy involving the girls and MO. I say you displayed good self control.
     
  16. PirateX

    PirateX Fapstronaut

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    I have been going to GYM regularly past 10 days. I try to sleep without making any fantasy’s. Only try to pray,or rehearsing a grace in my mind. Next thing I have noticed is good sleep, strong erection little hard to maintain once I wake I have pee. but still i feel benefits to what i’m doing.
     
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  17. PirateX

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    I never fantasy girls than MO. It has always been PMO. I’m try to cut on TV as well, only watch something documentary or exercise related or music. I have realized that it’s one of the most common trigger for my urges.
     

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