story of my life...

I was a determinant guy and successful in my organisation as well . there were few down trends in my life and I stuck in one year depression . to over come this depression . I started doing whatever makes me happy.. eating lots of junk. watching videos online.. I was masturbating earlier but just once in 3 to 5 months.. when failed few dreams.. I started watching videos whole day and night.. I was not sleeping in nights anymore.. I started using online dating apps , started catching chicks , then started sexting with girls online , then started having cam sex.. every night I used to find new 3 to 4 girls and I used to have sex each of them.. it was so amazing..
I lose every control on my self and starting fapping . girls were so satisfied with me.. I was one of those who can please them whole night . for example if they want me to be there at least 30 minutes.. I used to be there 6 to 8 hours and I used to talk dirty whole night.. I started sleeping in morning around 7 or 8 am and before that I used to eat a lot of junk and packaged food. I used to wake up at 3 or 4 . since I was not having my lunch , I was having a reason to stuff myself with more junk..every second night I stared eating spicy food.. at 2am I used to eat instant noodles... and result was that I ruin my digestion system completely.. it started bleeding when I stool.. and I was keeping fucking girls and keep eating junk together... at that time my way of talking was sooo good so It was really easy for me to get a new girl daily . but then I became to much bore with this chitchat.. I started catching sluts and from start of the conversation I was able to seduce any girl...any girl.. but my stomach problem became serious now.. I was not able to sit for longer now...
I was doing a job ( which was my dream since childhood) where I have to sit atleast 12 hours... was earning a lot of money before... but now it started getting so difficult.. since I was too much indulged with this girls.. I started missing my office.. and I was capable of complete projects which were allotted to me.. but I failed it miserably for some dating apps.. my second project failed because of girls and third because of my stomach problem.. earlier I was capable of completing these project and when fourth project ( my last chance because earlier I was best in our organisation and was achieved awards as well ) I tried my best.. but I was nt able to quit faping , quit porno , quit watching videos.. I cried so many times... I cried much louder when I failed my fourth and last project... got thrown out of organisation.. where I was ruling before.. it was like a king lost a battle .. battle with his own people..
my family is suffering a lot now a days.. I lose my confidence.. am trying my best.. but when urges arises they become much valuable for me as compare to my life.. as compared to life of the people who love me.. finally after again a short term depression I started fighting . because I was not in a position where my depression could be afforded by me or my family..
even after this 2 to 3 years.. am unable to make steak for more then 3 to 4 days .. Imaximum 10 days..i controlled myself a bit.. am eating healthy food.. stomach problem has gone..but ruined my body.. gained 15 to 20 kg fat..not weight.. am doing exercise but stamina is zero.. earlier gym trainer used to praise my stamina.. 2 to 3 hours hard workout were ordinary thing for me.. now its defficult to excise for 15 to 20 minutes..because of these fat and failure.. i am lacking confidence a lot in my life...I need my life back..i struggled a lot for my dream.. and now I cant see my dream because of this brain fog... am scattered in pieces and collecting my self back to stand back again.. to be what I am.. to rule once again..
today I jerk off again.. help me... tell me what should I do.. my family my life my health every thing is about to finish..​

 

Its it easy to do it for a year...