Staying Sane while thinking about crush..

Has anyone else struggled with this

Lately I've been starting to crush on friend of mine. I see him pretty much everyday and we spend time together.

It's weird but just his smile and how he looks at me makes me excited.
Or just imagining he might become my boyfriend in the future...makes it hard to stay PMO free.

I'm trying to keep my thoughts under control...but a lot of the time I'm having innocent thoughts but for some reason my body just keeps reacting. It's such a pain.

I don't want people telling me that it's because I don't really like or care about him. As some people have said.
I really do care about him and want the best for him and would never want to take advantage of him or do anything bad.

I just know I need some distraction because I'm going crazy. In one way because of how my addicted mind is reacting and also because I want to see him and be with him so bad but I know I can't currently.

I just need to stop thinking about him so much. But it's hard since even in my dreams I am dreaming we are a couple. So that's my first thoughts when I wake up is of him.

Srry for ranting but I'm the type that will not tell anyone if I like someone. And this is driving me insane so I have to talk about it..lol

 

Telling him how I feel would be a bad idea currently since we can't date. And I feel a tad uncfortable getting a potential boyfriend to help me with my addiction. It just may go sour. It could turn out he is addicted to so.. :/ you know most guys think it's normal and love that kinda stuff. NoFap is kinda walking against the current.