Starting Nofap.. again

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by stay_strong, Dec 4, 2015.

  1. stay_strong

    stay_strong Fapstronaut

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    Okay, so I'm coming back to this site after a really long time now (started out with me "being too busy" and eventually forgetting about it). But that doesn't mean I haven't been trying to quit - I've actually tried several times but ended up relapsing each time.

    I'm starting again and hopefully this time it will last. As soon as I read some of the forums here, it made me question why I even wanted to M (especially after reading success stories). I've got a couple of exams left this coming week and then a week or two of holidays. I'm pretty sure I won't be PM or O'ing for the next couple of days (hopefully!) but what I'm really worried is about what happens when my holidays start - when I'm not engaged with anything, because I can almost imagine what I'll be doing (and unfortunately it's not pretty).

    Like one day I'll wake up saying okay today, I'll be doing this, this and this - PMO won't even come to mind. But, as soon as I take up my laptop, almost like a routine I reach to open incognito mode and soon...

    Of course, afterwards I'm left with a horrible feeling and remembering that feeling is what's keeping me from doing you know what right now. But it doesn't always work. In the moment, I can't think properly and it's in the back of my head. Like i can feel its presence (vaguely) but can't be bothered to give it a second glance because I'm so preoccupied with what I'm being dragged into. I dismiss the thought as irrational even though I KNOW that is the exact opposite of what it is.

    I apologize if this post has been really long to read but I'm asking for help. I need motivation to stay on track, advice on what I can do, especially if it is based on personal experience and approved by you. Also feel free to comment on your experience/journey/whatever you wanna call it (whether you're only beginning or have been at it for years)

    TL;DR- I've been trying forever to quit and would appreciate any advice, even your experience, anything at all just to keep me logged on this site and keep me coming back to it.
     
  2. M818

    M818 Fapstronaut

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    Hey! read your post. i'm new here so I don't know a whole lot but I do know that if you are going to stop, you have to forgive yourself and then come back at it. Don't give up. I'm on my 4th day of the December Challange. Maybe jump in and join?
     
  3. SolidStance

    SolidStance Guest

    Try and look at this from a larger perspective. We are a group of souls working towards the same goal. Posting here and staying close makes you part of this group. Think of us as being with you at all times, typing, eating, working, sleeping, we are together in this. Thats how successful teams are built.

    Since we are together in this, when you win the daily battle, we all win with you and stand tall. If you slip and become the fallen again, we feel it in us as a disturbance. But as a group we are strong and will reach out and pick you back up. Slow by slow we start to feel responsible, accountable. From this larger perspective we can see its not even about us anymore, its not about me or you or my success story, none of that. Its about the group, hows the other guy doing. This way we all become responsible, finally. This is a secret and silent addiction and someone needs to shine a light on it. Thats what a counter is for, not for the number, for the accountability.

    Lets do this together, as a battalion would, as a squadron. Just like we were on the ice, the field, the blacktop, the court, the front lines. Thats where we are. Its the little things that matter now. Watch your language, watch your diet, watch the people you surround yourself with. Watch everything throughout the day and uplift it, one by one by one.

    I'm with you now, whether you like it or not. Im not leaving you either. Theres no longer a choice. Your coming with me straight to the top.
     
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  4. M818

    M818 Fapstronaut

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    SolidStance.. Thank you!
     
  5. stay_strong

    stay_strong Fapstronaut

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    @M818 I would love to join in although I haven't been clean from the beginning of december. Is there a thread for that or do I sign up somewhere? Also I'd really like to talk more.

    @SolidStance That is a very interesting perspective - one that I shall remember from now on. And thank you for that.

    Thanks a lot guys for posting here. Please do keep coming back here. I would love to hear more from you.
     
  6. pulkit duggal

    pulkit duggal Fapstronaut

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    face it bro , uknow u can start NoFap n continue it lifetime ,its just a mindset , i did 10 days NoFap , i never thought i ll be able to do dat , but i ll do it for lifetime.
     

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