Starting again from DAY 0

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Nanni, Jun 5, 2019.

  1. Nanni

    Nanni Fapstronaut

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    OK it's the third time that I relapse, but this time full PMO...
    I guess this is probably induced from some images accidentaly found on the internet while I was looking for some functional training exercises...

    This time I wanna do an experiment: writing my experiences here in this thread, so that I have a new hobby and and one more motivation not to relapse

    Do you agree with me?
     
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  2. RisingTrojen

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    make this your journal mate!!!!!.And All the best for your journey
     
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  3. I too am making my journal accountable for my actions. A lot of my problem is going into private mode and staying there until I get home, I want to live life not on private mode anymore
     
  4. Empty soul

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    So guys I started NoFap 6 months back roughly.. but couldn't continue for more than 8 days .. but this time I wanna stop let this thing damage my life .. so starting at day 0 again wish me luck ..
     
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  5. Just keep coming back here and be positive. Trust me, I have relapsed so many times this year and it is such a let down every time. Come here to vent and take accountability.
     
  6. jarvyjarvison

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    It happens man. If you want some advice on how to avoid relapsing, let me know. I say definitely go for a journal if you think that'll help.
     
  7. Nanni

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    Day 2; during the past 2 days I've been struggling against depression, because of my sense of failure, frustration, lack of self esteem, etc.
    There's been a moment, when I was praying the rosary, when I even thought the sentence:"If only suicide weren't a mortal sin..."; and I got angry with myself, and I felt unable to do my ordinary duties.
    Now I've learned that being humble is the key of happiness, because it makes see everything with the correct eyes.
    So I go on like this: I'm descovering once again the pleasure of playing music, which was buried by the sense of duty and the technical aspects of studying concerts and orchestral excerpts.
    I don't know if everything was related to my relapse, but I feel like depression is harder to fight than PMO, and it's the main cause of it. So I have to be careful.
     
  8. surge283

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    Think of it this way: the more negative your mentality is towards a relapse, the worse you will feel. If you realize that it's a natural human instinct to mate with someone (release your sperm), you will be hit less hard. NoFap isn't the answer to your life's problems, it's only an aid.
     
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  9. MM47

    MM47 Fapstronaut

    Its good habit ..
    Keep going ..
    Also i relapse because the same problem ..
    Good luck
     
  10. Nanni

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    I realised that relapsing can be a way to get rid of a bad situation, even just for a few minutes.
    Now I don't have any satisfaction from PMO, even if I have some urges, and the last time I relapsed I nearly felt like I didn't, I was indifferent: no good and no bad, sadness... Or maybe just the fact that pornography didn't respond to my expectations.
    So I learned that PMO isn't worth it, it's not solving problems and I'd better stop, most of all because it's a mortal sin.
    Anyway my worst enemy is the demoralizing steam of thoughts flowing through my mind.
     
  11. Yo_soy

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    [QUOTE = "Nanni, post: 2086921, miembro: 314729"] OK, es la tercera vez que recaigo, pero esta vez está llena de PMO ...
    Supongo que esto probablemente se debe a algunas imágenes encontradas accidentalmente en Internet mientras buscaba algunos ejercicios de entrenamiento funcional ...

    Esta vez quiero hacer un experimento: escribir mis experiencias aquí en este hilo, para tener un nuevo pasatiempo y una motivación más para no recaer.

    ¿Estás de acuerdo conmigo? [/ CITA]
    Quiero empezar de 0
     
  12. Yo_soy

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    [QUOTE = "Yo_soy, post: 2091964, miembro: 333350"] [QUOTE = "Nanni, post: 2086921, miembro: 314729"] OK, es la tercera vez que recaigo, pero esta vez está llena de PMO ...
    Supongo que esto probablemente se debe a algunas imágenes accidentalmente en Internet mientras buscamos algunos ejercicios de entrenamiento funcional ...

    Esta vez quiero hacer un experimento: escribir mis experiencias aquí en este hilo, para tener un nuevo pasatiempo y una motivación más para no recaer.

    ¿Estás de acuerdo conmigo? [/ CITA]
    Quiero empezar de 0 [/ QUOTE]
    Como creo un foro para contar desde 0?
     
  13. Nanni

    Nanni Fapstronaut

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    Porque has traducido mi contenido?
     
  14. Yo_soy

    Yo_soy New Fapstronaut

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    [QUOTE = "Nanni, post: 2091973, miembro: 314729"] Porque se ha convertido mi contenido? [/ QUOTE]
    Donde debo ir para iniciar un foro
     
  15. Nanni

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    Forums -> Choose one cathegory -> choose the button "create new thread"
     
  16. Nanni

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    Day 3; Today, after practicing for a while, I'm going to the seaside, so that I relax a little bit, have fun and take a little sun! :)
    I just have to see if the program and the organization are up to be the same during the day, because maybe something is gonna happen.
     
  17. Nanni

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    Day 8: Always practicing with my instrument, but even though I can see some improvements, I've got a lack of motivation for joining the next audition.
    Two days ago I was back home from Zurich, where I was invited for an audition for The Philharmonia Zurich Academy Orchestra; I failed the first round... Again...
    Now I'm afraid of failing once again, because even though I improve myself with my technique, I don't feel like enough confident to win... Just a few times in my life I felt like:"OK, I'm f***ing gonna win!", but then I lost; and when I felt like :"I'm not prepared enough... ç_ç" I lost...
    Now I don't know anymore how to put myself beyond these situations... And my master never told me something like:"Great! Bravo!", never shown enthusiastic of my improvements: he just behaved like:"OK, this is what you were supposed to do, let's keep on working, the way is hard and long..."; and because of many characterial discrepancy, gettin me stressed, I decided to stop attending him and to attend someone else.
    In this complicated situation I really want to relapse, even though I know the outcome... The less satisfactions I have, the bigger become my urges...
     

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