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Discussion in 'Women in Reboot' started by Bee_11, Dec 21, 2018.

  1. Freedom_lover

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    You are not doing anything bad You're doing a great job.
    On one occasion I also had a wet dream, it was very strange, but I guess it's part of the process.
    Just be careful that it does not become a reason for relapse ;)
     
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  2. Bee_11

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    Thanks a lot for this. I was really kinda freaking out. I mean I didn't know if it was my fault or something. But now I am relaxed. Thank you so mich ❤
     
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  3. Freedom_lover

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    You can sleep peacefully ;)

    Sorry, English is not my original language, so I have to ask what is "mich".
    I know it's not bad because you put a heart aside hahaha :p
     
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  4. Bee_11

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    Oops, I am so sorry. It was a last minute typing error. I wanted to type 'much' there.
     
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  5. bobross

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    Studying can be a big trap. Research indicates that 45min is the optimal continuous study interval, that should be followed by a 10-15 min break. If you overdo it, focus wanes and the mind wanders, sometimes in dark places. And yes, wet dreams are absolutely natural and healthy. It's the purposeful PMO habits that are destructive.

    Btw @Bee_11, you said your computer broke (unless I misunderstood)? I have some technical knowledge, maybe I can offer some help with that
     
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  6. Bee_11

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    Thank you so much for asking but I did it myself. :)
     
  7. Bee_11

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    sure, I keep taking breaks. :)
     
  8. Bee_11

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    Day 12.

    Pornless life is a good life but once you've known porn as a way to please yourself, it gets difficult for you. But you have to work towards it. That's what I have realized today. There will be urges. Sometimes strong, sometimes weak but they aren't going away completely any soon. But one day, they will be subsided. I believe that. Being good is a choice. And there's always a wrong road we will encounter. What we have to do is to listen to our heart, our soul and take the right road, no matter how alluring the wrong path looks like. :) Fighting my urges.
     
  9. bobross

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    "The Universe is vast and we are small. There is really only one thing we can ever truly control...whether we are good or evil."
     
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  10. Freedom_lover

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    I totally agree with this beautiful thought.
    Keep it up Bee, you're doing a good job.
    12 days are very good ;)
     
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  11. Bee_11

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    Thank you so much, you guys
     
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  12. Bee_11

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    Day 14.

    It was okayish. I had a lot to do. I didn't think much about it. A little, maybe. But I guess, it's hard to remove it completely from your system once you've let it embed so deep. But urges are getting scarier. I mean, when they're always there, you know them. You know how to talk yourself out of it. When they aren't always there, they're like those ghosts inside closet waiting to hop on you as soon as you let go of your alertness. But I am making through it. It's good. :)
     
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  13. Bee_11

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    Day 14.

    So far, so good. I really can't believe that I haven't resorted to porn for past 14 days. Not even a single snap. Oh god. It really really really feels so good.
     
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  14. bobross

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    It will get even better :) Wait for the 'superpowers' :D
     
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  15. Freedom_lover

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    It feels awesome, don't you think?
    Demonstrate to yourself that you can do something you never thought to do.
    Very good job, Bee!!! :) :D
     
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  16. Bee_11

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    Day 16.

    It has been 15 days now. Without Porn. And a week without MO. I can't help with wet dreams. But otherwise things have definitely become better. I feel like I have got back my focus. My ability to concentrate on other important things has increased. My body acts out when I sleep. But I am not letting it affect my life. It will pass away, soon. Nofap community is so amazing. I love it how people are supportive here. This is an amazing place to be.
     
  17. Bee_11

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    Day 20.

    20 days without porn. Some 12 days without M. And I am not even having wet dreams anymore. 4 days on my periods and I haven't had any urges. I think it is great because usually during menstruation, I feel a little more vulnerable to all kind of things that are arousing, than usual. To be honest, I feel so relaxed. I didn't need to login on the forum because I have been concentrating on my studies. Not using internet much helps a lot. I hope you all are doing fine too.
     
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    @Bee_11

    That is SO great to hear. Keep up the good work. You are motivating me to persevere. I am right now in the midst of intense urges for the last few hours.

    Part of my plan is to come on this site. It is great and wonderful to see your success......it is encouraging for me.
    Thanks again. You never know how your struggle is impacting others.
     
  19. Bee_11

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    Yes. I agree. I do this thing. Whenever there are urges, I talk to myself. I ask myself if A few minutes of pleasure is worth a week of guilt and anxiety. I remember how adversely it affects me. And then, I tell myself the answer. I say no out loud for myself to hear and I keep doing whatever I was doing before urges appeared. Listening to music helps too.
     
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  20. Bee_11

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    Day 23.

    Three weeks and counting. I didn't know if I could do it. But now, I know. I can do it. I can go long without watching porn and masturbating. I can do this. It is an amazing feeling. I want to maintain this streak. I love this forum.

    There has been a lot of struggle. I fought with my urges everyday but a little bit of pushing yourself everyday to be a better person doesn't harm anyone. Remember the goal and nothing can get in your way. Just keep the goal in your mind.
     
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