I relapsed after maintaining a week of no PMO streak. I went in relapse and it took me some time to figure things out all over again. And I reached a conclusion. I want to share that with everyone. Every once in a while when we would think of hastening the process of healing, we might as well end up hurting ourself. One of the thoughts that urge us to hasten up the process is also the thought that gives you a false hope and you start thinking 'Maybe It isn't as bad with me," or "Maybe, I could do things on my own and be good myself," or "Maybe, why am I being so hard on myself afterall" and that's how we give in to our self doubts. These thoughts are not completely negative perse. But it might vary person to person. Sometimes, it just might be our overconfidence speaking. This isn't how you win. You don't win by considering your enemy weak. If you underestimate your problem, you will never be able to control it or uproot it. Now, I have come to an understanding that I still do not have proper control over every desire of my body. No matter how bad I want it. What's worse is that past few days have been really hard. I was caught off guard by a fever and I gave into my urges one day after another. I don't feel any good about it. But this time, I am more familiar with what my issue is and where the problem lies. This time I am more familiar with how my urges work and I guess, the better you know your enemy, more are the chances of you defeating it. I am not saying that relapsing was a good experience. Here, I am saying that I learned things from my bad experience and I am ready to imply them now. I won't try to do a month or two weeks either. I will use this simple technique. For next 9 days, I will wake up and whenever the urges will arrive, I will tell myself and my body and them urges that, "No, Not today." Being stuck in PMO cycle has been the worst experience of my life. I feel so detached from my culture and my gods. I see things I don't want to see. But I will make through it. I know. Where there's will, there's the way.