Dear fellow nofappers, It has been years since I have visited this site. I just came here now, thinking I should be proud of my achievement - I am soon to reach 90 days of no pmo and it feels good. This is not the first time though. Back in 2015, I went 7 months without porn, only to give in when I was in a long distance relationship feeling horny, lonely and weak. I gave in, and surely I started to care less about it, giving in time after time, until I was back at a weekly/monthly binge habit. It ended up destroying my relationship of 4 years, as it drove me to infidelity, and carelessness. My girlfriend still wanted me, but I fell in love with a younger woman, who I now call my girlfriend. She is great, and since we’ve been together, I am determined to not let porn ruin my love- and sexlife once again. I feel different now, and it’s harder to recognize the benefits of NoFap. That being said, I know they are there, deep and subtle. Women love me, and I love women, maybe because I’m no longer sexualizing everyone of them as soon as I lay my eyes on them. I realize I might be in the state we call the flatline, and that the winter has taken it’s toll on me, but I’m more determined then ever to shut the door for porn once and for all. I don’t think about it as much as I used to, but I still get the urge, and I sometimes miss the sweet pleasure of jerking off to porn. Proud to say I’m about to reach 90 days, and that my sexlife is more and more becoming like the sexlife I’ve always imagined.