social anxiety on nofap

New here. Struggling with this addiction for a very long time now.My problem is mentioned in the title. SAD has destroyed almost my life.Lost my friends (or better to say i avoid them) .The only people i can normally communicate are family members and to friends with some insecurities. The problem started on day 78 of nofap. I had SAD when i PMO but on nofap things skyrocketed. When it hit me i couldnt look anyone in the eyes and i had no problems before it. It was the longer i abstain from porn the harder it gets. I got very good days on day 40-45 but then i it became a nightmare. I failed the streak ,now am on day 0 and my anxiety changes. I dont know why it was this bad .I know im a heavy addict for 8 years. Several years femdom addiction, 5 years pied ,brain fog...al this stuff. But i just cant live with SAD ,it the worst thing. And when i relapse i can not stop till i am exhausted ,and feeling like my brain is going to explode from the amout of porn i look.I just cant help it. But what i now know i must hit atleast one year clean ,else i never be normal. Al this is cause of perverted porn (humilation,fetish,joi..).I never had SAD before PMO. Never this type. Want to know if anyone else hd a similar expirience on nofap.
TITLE is wrong haha *during nofap