So I have a question?

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by LivingLetter, Dec 8, 2018 at 7:46 AM.

  1. LivingLetter

    LivingLetter Fapstronaut

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    Last night my wife went to bed around 11:30pm. I stayed up just being a guy, playing my new Smash Bro Ultimate and all of a sudden I began to feel urges of lust and porn.

    I began to acknowledge it and lost focus of the game. I regained focus, play the game and I began to feel the urge again. I would pause the game, touch my "Johnson" for a second and stop (realizing what I was doing). I began to feel the urge get stronger so I turned off the game and went to the bathroom.

    I sat down and began to "try" to look for porn. I have this conscious thought that I don't want anything to be stored on my phone so I try to look for something that is light porn.

    I looked up terms like "sex" on the app store but I didn't see anything and nothing was not pulling up so I gave up in trying to look for porn.

    I went upstairs and went to bed. I'm grateful that for one, I did not see any porn in a time of strong urges to do so. But second, I felt guilty and convicted that I did touch myself for a moment and I began to feel sick to my stomach about it.

    It amazes me how one day you feel as strong as ever and than another day, it takes one second to feel all theses crazy urges and you want to go to porn and watch all this perverted stuff. I'm frustrated with myself because I have been doing really good in staying away from porn but also not having any urges to have porn.

    I don't need that in my life. Porn makes things so complicated and I lose sight of myself and what I have and what I want to become.

    I did have one question to all of you: now that this happened last night, is this consider a "relapse" or "reboot?" If so, I would like to know, so I can decide if I need to change my tracker day back to day 1.
     
  2. DalyStrgle

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    Here’s how I look at it. The urges are always there. Did you look at porn, rest the tracker. If nothing came up and the brain did not get what it wanted, you don’t reset the tracker. Did you m to completion, reset the tracker. Did you touch and move on, don’t reset the tracker. Just my opinion.
     
  3. The Lone Ranger

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    I agree with above: if you watched P only for 10 seconds, I would say reset, since your tracker says “without P” (that was a really close call bro, learn from it!).

    I wouldn’t say touching you Johnson for a second counts as M, that’s my opinion.

    So from my point of view, you’re off the hook. Analyse and move on better prepared.

    Best of wishes!
     
  4. Monkmode2000

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    I suppose it depends on how intense your goals are. Some Yogis go without sexual urges for life. If having no urges for porn at all was your goal then you must be honest. If the goal was just no looking at porn then you have the streak still alive. Attempt to make the goals as specific as possible is my advice and just be honest with yourself. In the end its up to you if you feel like the streak was broken or not.
     
  5. LivingLetter

    LivingLetter Fapstronaut

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    Great feedback and thank you so much for it.
     
  6. LivingLetter

    LivingLetter Fapstronaut

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    thank you so much for the feedback. Great insight and I appreciate it.
     
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  7. LivingLetter

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    Thank you so much for the reply. I like what you said about having specific goals. Great advice.
     

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