Man I feel so bad, but I have to be fully honest with myself, because I truly do not want such a toxic view on people, and put myself in a potentially bad position. Basically, ever since I was a freshmen in high school, I would always take sneaky photos of women's butts (pretty big ones). Technically, the photo does not center on it, but it is there. Videos mostly take the whole screen, of girl walking by. Fortunately, I delete the photos and videos after I jack off, but I still do eventually take more. I used to have a whole folder of girls I had a crush on and these photos/videos on my computer. I deleted them, honestly, but had them for a few months. I used to photoshop with these photos on various things, such as fetishes (EW, UGH) because I got nothing better to do. Nowadays, I'm better, but I still feel the urge with my phone, to open the camera app, lower brightness all the way, and take a sneak photo. I was so good at it that my one of guy friends said, "Bruh, how are you that good?" I'm such a creep, but I swear, I don't want this, it's my compulsive PMO mind craving for more. What can I do? I can't leave my phone, I'd be isolated without it. I don't use social media a lot, nor do I have a lot of time-filler apps, but I still feel the urge. I am still abstaining from PMO, if that will help.