Smart, ambitious and hardworking. Is what people think of me.

Hey everyone!
I am a 21 year old, presently a junior at a reputed university.

I came across the word porn when on a news channel back when I was in grade 5.. I distinctly remember the clipping of a google search of the words 'nude pics' being played again and again by the channel. Coincidentally I came across internet and google around the same time. And you can very well guess what my first google search was all about. Funnily enough the first search result was a half nude picture of Daniel Radcliff. But the ones after that were.. pretty intriguing.

Fast forward to 7th grade. One day I am in the bed, sleeping on my stomach and reading a magazine where they had a picture of some cute actress. I really liked her. But this time it was a lil diff, because I was also hard. And my penis was pressed against the bed. It felt good. Lying in that position, thinking about the actress and moving and stimulating my penis. Shortly after, I had my laptop open and was pouring through all the search results to "hot xxx video porn". I was living in a country where porn was banned, so most of the google links to these websites were blocked. finally on some 40th or 50th page did I come across a blogspot site which had porn videos. Lel. And so till date, I have been hooked to porn and masturbation. They have become so ingrained in my daily routine that this realisation that its an addiction came only after my girlfriend noticed it. Initially, every time after I cummed, I would tell myself that this would be the last. But I broke my own promises so many times that voice in my head just subsided. I was addicted. Period. It became something out of my control. I was being controlled by the urge. In grade 10 my dad bought me a sexy laptop. But I spent so much time watching porn on it that, one day, even after telling me to do something almost 20 times that day, I kept watching porn in my room. That day he came in and broke the laptop. Damn. I forced my dad into breaking something expensive which he bought with his own hard earned money. I am realising that as I type this, and this feeling is really shitty.

For the past 8 years I have been masturbating excessively. I have been pretty successful according to social standards. But now that this realization has come in I feel very shitty about it. But I am going to stop. I am going to change. And NoFap seems like a very good resource. I'll make complete use of this.

As of now my target is very simple. I am not going to masturbate or watch porn for a month. And after that I'll keep the streak going. Thankfully, my girlfriend is very supportive. So I don't think it will be an obstacle.

To all the new Fapstronauts,
LET'S DO THIS, BOIS.