Slowly becoming an alcoholic, not to mention my weed addiction :(

I let the porn addiction go on for so long that I'm also addicted to weed.... From about May 2016 - September 2017 I was smoking weed almost every day. I was stealing it from my roommate for awhile, and even now I still manage to go buy weed every week or two, smoking it compulsively... I crave weed all the time even though I hate how it makes me feel.... Being high feels better then the loneliness, anxiety and depression that haunt my daily existence...

Lately I've been drinking more, its 12:30pm and I just drank a few shots worth from a few bottles, trying to make it look like they haven't been touched.... I live at homw with my parents so it's not even my booze.

I have been seeing an addiction councillor for over 6 months, and a bioenergetic therapist for longer then that. I've been to SLAA meetings and have recently gone to an open AA meeting where there's about 60 people.

Honestly... some days I want to give up. I don't see any hope. My longest streak was close to 3 weeks.

Fuck.... idk what to do