Sissy porn recovery?

Discussion in 'Problematic Sexual Behavior' started by lifespark, Apr 19, 2019.

  1. bigboibez

    bigboibez Fapstronaut

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    this is sad stuff man

    look at it like this. before porn you were straight. after porn, you were confused. the common denominator here is porn.
    stop the porn and youll revert- eventually- to how you were before.
    the problem here is low self esteem. it really hurts the reboot because fear and self doubt make it infinitely harder to stop using your crutch. it is a good idea to get support for this in the form of others in real life. therapy is also useful and exercise as others suggested is also great. just hold on to the idea that the urges hold an illusion and that stopping represents a brighter future. it is easy to think 'I don't have the power to fight these urges every day for the rest of my life', instead just worry about the present day. you cannot control what happens tomorrow or yesterday in the current moment. keep a journal that you can look back to and the happiness you feel when youre clean for a day.

    porn is fucked up man. why didnt people tell everyone of the dangers of porn similar to that of heroin and other drugs.

    anyway, good luck. you're not alone.
     
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  2. Reborn16

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    Where to start man... I have been in a similar place, and now I'm out of it. You can absolutely leave this in the past!

    I got bored with regular porn, even fetish porn, only the sissy stuff got me aroused for a number of years.

    Then I acted on it. I bought clothes and dressed up, bought and wore makeup, even went shopping with a woman. I became so confused I even 'came out' to my family that I was a cross dresser. It was only a short time after that when I decided maybe my life could be better if I was masculine again.

    These days I go a few weeks or a few months without any porn. But when I do watch anything, it's purely 'vanilla' stuff. And my desire is purely for being with a woman.

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    I highly recommend you question yourself, as to why you desire to be feminine? This should provoke you to make any changes in your life that would solve this issue.

    For me, I had a lack of female company in my life. I solved this by joining more social clubs, going out more and socialising with women. Lately I'm a bit calmer and feel I don't have to prove anything, so socialising with other men is easier too. BOTH used to be intimidating for me.

    I try not to judge guys who dress or act feminine these days. After all, I've been there and done that. But I can tell you it is possible to move on and have almost zero desire for this.

    If you want to ask me anything please go ahead. Moral arguments aside, I strongly believe anyone can change this, if that's what they desire the most.
     
  3. Roady

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    Hi @lifespark
    It's a good thing to share your story and looking for hope. Yes there is hope.
    Sissy hypnosis is a very cunning and tricky way to give space in your brain for their suggestions while pushing aside your normal beliefs.
    It's like a drill: it drills a split in your brain and in the depth these suggestions are planted. When you wake up from the rush, the suggestions are still there, but now you created a sexual experience which have the intention to confirm these suggestions.
    I came out of a life with gender dysphoria, I used to crossdress in my youth, got very depressed and found my way out.
    During my recovery a couple of years ago I suddenly discovered sissy hypno porn. I fell deeper as ever before. But I knew immediately what was going on.
    For a couple of years I worked hard to get it out of my system. The last year I watched it once a month I think. I feel the pull is losing its grip on my mind.

    Some people will convince you are pushing down feelings. I can tell you, I don't push down anything. It's the other way around. When I started to be as honest as possible about my real feelings, my problems started solving. Porn is a band aid. A quick fix. When we stop using porn, the real stuff can come to the surface again.

    I don't believe that anything in this world can change our identity. But certain things can change what we believe about our identity.
    Sissy porn is such a thing. The arousal is changing your beliefs about yourself. That's the damage actually. If you stay away from porn and work on recover the real convictions of your heart, you will meet yourself again.

    I wrote a lot in my journal about my struggle and sissy hypno. I'm sure it will give you insight and help you further in your recovery.

    Way to go buddy. You're not alone in this.
     
  4. mcp8419

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    I think porn, sexual orientation and the act of brainwashing/hypno is all fundamentally conditioning of the mind, voluntary or involuntary, that's rewired the brain from childhood, adolescence or over a period of time. I'm not saying it's wrong but we are living in a world of distorted perception largely due to technology and social media
     
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  5. phwrancesco

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    maybe is time for you to forget this romantic attraction to women you are talking about and just act like a man!

    I don't know how old are you but being too much romantically attracted is for teenagers, when you're a grown man you have to start thinking in a more practical way :)
     
  6. QuietKarma

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    I experienced this addition. It got to the point where all I could think about are these perverted desires. I would go outside for a walk to clear my head and walking along the street seeing a bedroom through a window would be a trigger for me because bedrooms would equate in my head to sissy porn and sex.

    Although I am not totally cured I feel much much better. The urges have largely melted away and continue doing so as I keep going. One word of advice, nofap does initially make things worse as the tension builds up from not having a release and causes really strong urges. But abstaining from porn is totally helped me a lot. I am not attempting a 3 month nofap journey to help cure a lot of things including sissy porn addiction and will let you know how it goes.
     
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  7. lifespark

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    For the record, I didn't have a past experience of wanting to cross-dress and then suppressing it. Before watching sissy hypno I felt 100% masculine and heterosexual.
    As soon as I cum from watching this type of material I feel sick inside. It's degrading.

    There are commands in some to eat your own cum, taste your own pre-cum that type of thing which I have done when horny enough but as soon as I ejaculate the idea of drinking my load makes me feel nauseous and then when I've emptied the tank, all I'm left with is semen on the floor and a feeling of having wasted hours on a pathetic fetish which is simply hijacking the dopamine receptors in my brain and nothing about what I really want to do/be.
    I also never watch it when I'm feeling good about myself, always when I'm worried about something or have feelings of guilt/shame within.

    The problem with sissy hypno is that it makes you feel like it's bringing out who you really are and that creates conflict yet if you go to the chat/video rooms associated with it, they all pretty much tell you that sissy hypno turns every man that watches it. They tell you to edge and to make sure you're wearing headphones and to imagine yourself as the girl in the videos. They tell you to buy a chastity cage to wear, so you derive enjoyment solely from anal stimulation plus it actually shrinks the penis over time. I've even been told I should start shave my body hair.

    It's very cult-like being around people who who watch sissy hypno. They want you to succumb to the porn's effects. They want to pull you in to the fetish. There are some deeply disturbed individuals within the scene.

    I can't help wonder if the sissy hypno phenomena is in some respects connected to the explosion in transgenderism we are seeing now. A lot of the people I have spoken with who are taking hormones and wishing to reassign their gender have told me they are heavy users of sissy hypno. It's going to be difficult for those who have an underlying sissy hypno fetish when they get their ticker removed cos they'll be nothing to beat away to afterwards.

    This is just a quick post because I've got a friend looking after my laptop for these early days. I just didn't think it right to not respond some more. I'll reply in more depth to you all individually when I can.
     
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  8. bigboibez

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    No joke this shit is fuckin scary. Glad i never went near this stuff and that i quit porn. Jesus how is stuff like this legal man, someone has an agenda
     
  9. Reborn16

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    Yeah there's a bunch of people online who all think it's great. And when I was avoiding the hardship of working out my life issues, I thought it felt pretty great to get lost in that fantasy too...

    But I have to say that it never felt truly fulfilling or natural. Sure there was fun, but it was never something I felt comfortable sharing with anyone else. And ultimately, even the fun part had its limits and got boring.

    One doesn't have to be too concerned with the morals or trends in society though.

    There's still a large group of people drinking too much alcohol and doing other stupid stuff. But we can consciously avoid those habits because we know it's unhealthy, usually from experience... The same thing, in time, will apply to this too.
     
  10. lifespark

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    I've just been notified by someone who was trapped in sissy hypno hell that there is a sissy 'mistress' who has a website online who clearly comes to these forums. I can put a link to the posts in question however they are explicit in content and may trigger people already suffering.

    This is the post on that person's site. I have also taken screenshots but don't know how to add them to my posts here. This is what 'she' writes because it may very well be a man.

    "I found this post on a nofap forum website. There’s no doubt in my mind that the author of this piece wrote this with the intention to lure and bring back our sisters who have foolishly tried to leave our fold and disregard their true purpose in life. It is a beautifully written story with cleverly hidden subliminal triggers. Any sissy reading this in hopes of finding out how to get rid of her “addiction” to sissy hypnosis will find that it is entirely impossible. Once you realize that you are a sissy, you will understand that this is your life. You are a sissy for a reason. No matter how many years you spend trying to run away from it, you will eventually come to accept that this is who you are. Better to learn earlier than later."

    The link contained under the underlined word 'nofap' leads to this thread. If what this person is saying is true then the poster could have written it to lure people back to sissy hypno.

    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...iction-story-is-there-any-hope-for-me.133276/

    I do know that people from the sissy fetish post here with a view to bringing people back into the sissy porn fold, so that is entirely possible.
     
  11. TimeToQuitNow

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    Just give it some time and be patient. Don't look it up again. All it'll do is make things worse.

    Also this may sound weird but its possible to want to dress up and be a woman while at the same time want to have sex with women. The 2 are not mutually exclusive. But if you know you are a man and outside of this fetish you don't want to be a woman then you should be ok. This fetish probably has a stronghold over your brain but people change. And if you didn't feel this way before the sissy porn then you should be able to recover.

    Hope this helps. Good luck on your recovery!
     
  12. mcp8419

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    I struggle to PMO unless I wear stockings or pantyhose. I have tricked my brain into the thinking this is the biggest turn on. I have to watch girls in pantyhose while getting off wearing them. It's fucked up. I've been doing this for years. I have no desire to be a woman. I've bought and trashed loads of pairs. Sometimes I would cam chat myself in stockings and enjoy the thrill of people watching me. But I'm a straight guy. Wtf. I believe sissy porn is a factor as well as an obsession with legs rather than tits and ass since I was a teenager. I just feel disgusted after I've finished PMO. Can't even masturbate without a toy or womens clothing. Can't even use my hand and I think I've got PIED
     
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  13. TimeToQuitNow

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    There is no way to know if this will ever going to go away. But one thing is for sure. You won't stop this behavior or way of thinking if you keep on masturbating.

    Also you should probably throw away any left over female clothes you got laying around
     
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  14. MaxP71

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    Hang in there! I can relate to many of the things you mentioned. I'm starting to think that the reason I liked to dress is that it made me feel closer to porn... like I'm part of that world or part of the fantasy. Or that if I were a girl, it would be easy to have porn-like experiences that I'm not having as a straight guy. I never really wanted to BE a girl, it was just an escape. And then of course the more I did it and PMOd, the more my brain associated dress up time with pleasure
     
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  15. Xander_

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    Damn, whenever i read something related to sissy or tranny porn, seeing how much people struggle and what such porn category gets them through makes me sick, i literally feel like i want to puke right now. I feel huge discomfort just thinking of such things.

    Stuff like these should be a good reminder that porn is not just harmless fun of "exploring yourself" and it can carry a lot of terrible consequences over time. This is serious.

    Seeing something like that really made me sick to my stomach, and upset. Thinking of all men that got lured into this just makes me feel really sad, this is literally a new type of humiliation and brainwashing on a totally new level.

    I hope you guys do whats right for your own well being. I do not know how it is exactly going through this (and i don't want to), but i do feel your pain. I wish you guys best of the luck to get your true yourselves back again.
     
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  16. Freedom_from_PMO

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    I wasn't deep into sissy hypno, but when I started nofap I was after few day strucked with lots of urges I never had - to be woman, to have sex with guys, it was really bad, but vanished after three days, completely I believe. I'll stay vigilant.
     

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