Sissy addicted at early age.

you should start full mode without PMO . we are on the same boat. we should give up porn entirely.
this is my post https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/anal-masturbation.133446/

 

it'll definitely mean stopping PMO and then it will take time and patience for your mind and body to redevelop more natural response to female interaction. The best thing is you are still young enough to restart and have a much better quality of life engaging in relationship(s) with a human partner rather than the unhealthy, endless loop of computers/smartphone images and the cycle of equal unhealthy fixations on less practical and an honestly unsatisfying form of sexuality. Don't expect an instant change and then give up when it takes longer than you'd prefer. We didn't develop these behaviors overnight and it be awhile before you'll experience a sexual reawakening...
The feeling of sharing your body with a human as apposed the an imaginary world developed in your/our head(s) *yes i've struggled with similar issues is* like comparing watching an car race on television verses actually driving a car.

best of luck

 

Try hard mode mate (no porn, masturbation or orgasms)

You will feel an improvement in days, a week, or maybe a few weeks. And that change will be a masculine energy which will help you get back on track to how you want to be!

 

pray.

 

...maybe not so daunting when taken one day at a time

 

Don't worry too much. I'm a 18 year old straight girl that has been PMO since age 7 (messed up childhood). I also went through the sissy pornography stage. Yes. You heard that right. Girls addicted to porn also go through weird fetish phrases that evolve into even worse fetish phases. Don't let the guilt and shame distract you from your goal. Abstain from PMO and slowly you will heal.

 

You are not alone, the sissy fetish affects so many of us. Start quitting porn, and don't look back.

 

That's more likely the addiction trying to 'trick you' into relapse, realistically given proper time, patience and continued discipline a normal relationship with a woman is entirely possible, heck probable...
the point remains these behaviors developed over a fairly long period of time and will take a proportional amount of time to redirect our thought patterns. Don't give up, normalcy does happen, do not let P cheat you out of a better existence

Peace...