I've been addicted for 6 yrs now and that has left me with a low self esteem and self worth. I find it hard to start up conversations with ladies in general. However , I met this lady who sells in my hood somewhere in August last year. She's humble and cool to around with. Just that she doesn't talk much. I'm beginning to like her. But I have fears of what if she doesn't like me? Also she's taller than I am. What fuels my fear more is the fact that I'm an addict and feel like I'm not ready to date a lady both physically and emotionally. This lady is also very marriage conscious and wants to get married as soon as possible. But I want to get married in 2022 as I feel by then, I would have been fully recovered. Should I ditch all my fears and ask her out or work on myself first? By the time I finish working on myself , she may have found someone else though and then I will have to find someone else too.