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Should I lie to my teammates about my indulgence?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Sunny W, Dec 4, 2018.

have you ever lie about your porn-addiction when it affect your life or work?

  1. yes, I used to tell lies

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  2. no, I tell the truth

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  3. no, I just avoid talking about the reason

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  1. Sunny W

    Sunny W Fapstronaut

    I'm a 25y/o graduate student. it's my last year in school and I have to finish my research.

    now my time is limited and I'm supposed to spent most of my time on it. my professor is so nice and so is my teammates, who are always willing to help. the only problem is me myself.

    however, I got overstressed and ralapsed last week. for nearly 5d I waste my time on Internet and porn. I didn't go to my lab to get on with my research. these days I had no communication with my teammates or my teacher.

    I dare not telling the truth. even though I started working again since Sunday, hiding a secret became really tiring. honestly, I feel like escaping from my teammates. I'm afraid that once I talk with them, they would find out that I'd made little progress, and if they ask me why, I don't know how to explain. yes it is quite a small thing to them, I know that there isn't anybody who is always watching on me, and I'm not that important to them. but I still get ashame and have no courage to communicate normally with them, feeling like a thief. Oh it sucks! my current research really need much help from my teammates! I need them!

    finally I lied to them. I said that I've been sick for many days, that I cannot go on with my research. they're nice persons, and tell me to take care of myself. I felt encouraged and released. but telling lies still made me feel bad, I made up fake stories to get their compassion. I don't wanna lie to them the second time, but I still dare not to tell them the truth.

    did you ever come across situations like this? how did you do and what's your opinion? if a pirod of relapse affect your own life or your working efficiency, how do you explain to your fellows? do you think I should lie or not?
     

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