Shemale/TS porn addiction; Personal story

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  1. FutureComing

    FutureComing New Fapstronaut

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    Hi NoFappers,

    I'm new to this and just on the way to becoming free of porn addiction. I'll do my best to be on point to not waste anybody's time. Also english isn't my first language = sorry for any mistakes.

    Here it goes. I started masturbating when I was 14. My preference of porn back then was straight porn, which later became lesbian. I had my first sex at the age of 17 with a woman aged 25, which was fairly successful as I made her squirt. However I didn't cum myself, even though we had been at it for decent 3 hours. My second sexual partner was a prostitute that I hired for an hour. Neither I could get my dick hard enough as I was really stressed nor I could cum.

    At that point I started thinking something is not right and soon after at the age of 18 I discovered shemale porn, which instantly turned me on. I then hooked up with an actual shemale in real life and enjoyed it at the moment but absolutely hated it afterwards. Nevertheless I continued masturbating to TS porn. Not long after I started clubbing and as I have lived by myself I could bring the girls over. In just half a year I managed to pick up and have sex with around 11 females of different ages and another shemale. With none of these sexual partners I was able to cum.

    I decided to do regular check ups with a proctologist and no issues have been found so far. Next year (2018) I continued masturbating solely to shemale porn and eventually ended up having sex with 4 female and 2 shemale prostitutes, which were notably expensive. I also had sex with around 5-6 regular girls that I picked up either in a club or online. Again I couldn't cum with any of those and usually couldn't get my dick hard with the majority of girls, but with the shemales it was hard like a rock.

    I now have absolutely no problem whatsoever getting a girl, even the hottest one. Moreover I get approached by a lot of them of all ages recently with an intent to have sex. However, when we get at it I don't feel that same excitement as I used. I would rather have sex with shemales because it feels more sexy and turns me on crazy. On the contrary, I'm ashamed of that fact. I'm definitely not attracted to men as just one thought about having sex with them makes me want to vomit.

    Currently I don't know what to do as I know that being attracted to shemales and watching TS porn is without a doubt not who I am. Moreover, I genuinely love women and want to have my own family in the future. Nevertheless, I understand that I'm addicted to shemale porn and regular girls don't turn me on as much as girls with dicks do.

    I'm seeking for your advice on how to break the chains of my addiction and shift my sexuality to where it should be. Any suggestion is highly appreciated.

    Best regards
     
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  2. krdt

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    I have had exactly the same problem and done everything you have done. I also felt exactly the same way, I have lost count of how many woman I slept with in my life. I was very sexually active, until around 28 when I found shemale porn and started fapping to that. The buzz was so exciting it was all I was interested in.

    At some point, I realized I hadn't been with a real woman for a while and tried to revert back to my old ways of only sleeping with woman. But the damage was done, they no longer excited me like they did before. This was the catalyst for change and I realised something had changed in my brain chemistry. I was addicted to the dopamine this extreme fetish has bought on.

    SO.... I started nofap, hardmode. Tomorrow is 30 days, the first 15-20 was hard I was a mess emotionally and mentally. But I rode it out and I have found the benefits of stopping all that sh!T profound! I was having a video chat with an old girlfriend a day ago and I got an erection, something that has not happened for years without porn.

    Porn horny is different to natural horny in my opinion, but porn horny is much stronger. You should stop engaing in any porn or shemale activity immediately if you want to overcome this.

    I promise you two things. Your mind will play tricks on you, make you doubt many things. But hang in there push forward and it will improve. That's my second promise.

    Good luck
     
  3. Tiger uppercut!

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    Hello and welcome! :)

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  4. FutureComing

    FutureComing New Fapstronaut

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    Thank you so much for such a comprehensive answer and advice. I truly appreciate it. Found your words motivating and funny enough it makes me feel glad that I'm not the only one experiencing this problem. Without a doubt I agree with you that porn horny is so much more intense than the actual life horny. That being said, I now declare that for the next 90 days I will enter a hardmode NoFap and abstain from any porn or shemale related activity.


    I'm really glad for your success and progress! Keep it up!
     
  5. FutureComing

    FutureComing New Fapstronaut

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    Hello Tiger! Thank you for welcoming me and providing all those links!

    Best of luck! See you around the forum!
     
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  6. SirErnest

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    You have made a start!
    Check out the Success Stories forum..
     
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  7. Always be positive

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    This will help you a lot, watch this and say goodbye to urges forever

    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/if-youre-struggling.232140/

    But however urges sometimes can attack even if you are focused on something else, when i got rid of those 1% foods which increases urges and started enjoying 99% other beautiful foods it became so much easyer for me ^_^
     
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  8. Reclaimer

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    Bro you better stop visiting prostitutes and do a checkup on all std’s.

    This shit is dangerous since condoms can always break and these people may def carry std’s (like gonorrea and hiv, especially trannies).

    Fucking stop the porn at all costs and get an actual girlfriend. Go approach normal women. Even if youre scared. You’re being a complete moron right now.
     
  9. FutureComing

    FutureComing New Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for your reply. Nevertheless, you have clearly misread my post. Not only have I mentioned that I frequently paid visits to my proctologist (still do), but have also outlined multiple times that I have no issue whatsoever getting a female.

    Could you please exactly specify what has made you write that I'm being an absolute moron?

    FYI: I have stopped all the shemale related porn for quite some time now, and this decision has been beneficial.
     
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  10. need4realchg

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    I enjoyed how you shared your story. I purposely never kept count I figured it would only torture me if I knew how many women. So I don’t know. But I do know shemales is 3. I agree there is a heightened sense of excitement but also of shame.

    The thing for me about the shemales that I found really helped me get over them. **trigger warning**

    I remember that the smell of sex with a shemale is distinct. You can’t truñy ever forget or misplace it. I would remember that to help me snap out of. The fog that comes on us when you get close to that.

    Glad to see you have the confidence man. As far as ejaculating, I would think you need to ask more questions.

    Under what circumstances have you ejaculated ?

    Did you practice edging ?

    Why not have sex and plan to not come. Maybe you are causing anxiety unintentionally ?
     

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